Is it normal to suppress sad emotions

I dislike showing sad emotions, I feel embarrassed or childish afterwards. Not so my family, but when I was in school I was taught that crying is a sign of weakness. Whenever I was sad, a staff member would say to stop crying. For example:

One day in 2nd grade, my teacher gathered us up and was about to read to us. She told everyone that if they made a noise, she would put them in detention. Yeah that's right A SINGLE NOISE! Anyways, she was reading and I had a huge stomachache. What did I do? Yep, I made a noise and was sent to detention! I was crying while solving difficult math problems. Then she asked who's coat was on the ground? Someone responded saying it was my coat. She demanded me to hang it back up and to stop crying like a baby. Please note that I have Autism and it was just improving at the time.

There's other instances in which I was told to stop crying, but it was that day that sealed it all. The one who scolded me for making mistakes and feeling such emotions.............. well it's my subconscious. My subconscious was like that authoritative parent. Criticizing me for the simplist things, especially if I started to show any kind of sadness. It would tell me to punch the sadness and to keep punching it until it was gone. I showed more anger and frustration than tears.

However, now I'm learning to embrace the sadness. I'm still not crying, but picturing myself hugging my sadness saying it's ok to feel this way.

By the way, if you thought I was a man, NOPE! I'm a woman and a girl who was raised with toxic masculinity

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Comments ( 11 )
  • DIO

    It's okay to cry. There's no need to feel any shame about it.
    Crying is also good for the health and hygiene of your eyes.
    Life is hard. Cry as much as you need.

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  • RoseIsabella

    I call troll, because 2nd graders don't get sent to detention.

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    • MissWolf

      I wish people wouldn't troll here. Then again it humors me with the stories and scenarios they come up with

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      • RoseIsabella

        It can be funny, but yeah, some people act like morons.

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    • LOLFanProductions

      I'm not a troll and I'm being honest when I say you didn't want to fuck with this teacher! My fiance had her as well when he went to school. She reminded me Mrs Trenchbull from Matilda. Once I put yogurt in my fruit and she sent me to the principals office. FOR PUTTING YOGURT IN MY FRUIT! Not to mention she was obese and old. I literally got scared when I was in grade 8, at a different school, and she came up to me and said hi. Additionally a fellow student said he had her at one point and also said she was MEAN!

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  • dimwitted

    The adults in your life were wrong to tell you not to cry or feel sad. You're human and it goes with the territory.

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  • cripplingdepressionman

    ahhhhh i mean you don't have to suppress if you dont want to

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  • ellnell

    That's the only way I know how to do it

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  • controversy

    Numb urself with drugs.

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    • FromTheSouthWeirdMan

      Only works temporarily

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  • libertybell

    When I was in special school and I cried, and I would get in trouble. Also, as an adult I used to cry on the psych ward, and the staff people would get really angry at me. I don't know why.

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