Is it normal to not want to tell anybody that i may have schizophrenia?

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I remember seeing shit move when I was a kid and hearing my name being called as a teen when I was alone. And now I hear whispering as a young adult and see shit!

Like seriously see some fucked up scary shit like big massive black shadows in corners of the room, could mistake them for death himself.
And when I'm trying to sleep I heared whispering, and I can even understand it! Sounded like a dude front the 1900 trying to sell me suit cases, wtf indeed.
And now I can't take it anymore because I've seen a floating pair of dark evil looking eyes shrouded in a dark shadow appear out of no where. And my eyes were open it just appeared infront of my line of vision!! Twice! With a day between both appearances. Second appearance appeared on-top of a Death Note poster of Light Yagami.

I feel like I should tell a psychologist or doctor but they seem fed up with me and my "problems". I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. But the symptoms of scitzophrenia match me almost perfectly.

I'm mostly scared of being locked up in a mental asylum if I told anyone, that's what my mum told me.

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megadriver

5 years ago

Talk with a psychologist and get help. Don't hide it. I was nearly wrecked by depression, can't imagine what this is like... This is an issue you can not deal with alone. My mom has a few issues... The only way to properly deal with those is the proper help, meds a relatively stress-free life and lots of love.

I wish you the best my friend. Schizophrenia is something I don't wish even upon my enemies.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  Is meds the only option for something like this, since I always react badly to them. Makes me a walking dead person when they gave me meds for depression and anxiety.
  
  But I do really want help, but I get misunderstood alot by my past psychologists: for example one has ditched me because I couldn't relate to anything she was telling me, another couldn't handle my problems so refered me to another place which had a long ass waiting list, and my latest one told me to grow up already but im in my very early 20's and even when i've had abuse in my life, and etc with some more in the past.
  Doctor given up on me aswell, so I don't think I would be comfortable getting help from him, not even helping me to get financial aid anymore, since I had to leave my job.
  I do want another psychologist but they never like me...
  Maybe I come off as blunt like I do to my friends, but I'm just like that because of shit I hear see and even sometimes feel...
  
  Do you think an online psychologist is safe and effective? I just thought about it today after looking around on YouTube.
  
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[Old Memory]

5 years ago

I have a friend with schizophrenia. Haven't seen them in a while but the only thing that seemed to work for them was taking medication. She was given a monthly needle or something like that.

I never agreed with her Schizophrenia diagnosis though. Cause I know she didn't tell the doctors that she had been abusing benzodiazepines, and probably had some withdrawal going on.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  I haven't taken that form of drug. I did take a different type of anti depressant and though that was what was causing it. But then I remember I've always been hearing shit since I was little, just got worse over time.
  I don't take any form of medication for more than 3 month now and I'm still seeing and hearing shit so I dunno.
  
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  - [Old Memory]
    
    5 years ago
    
    My friend could hear and see people. She said they mostly make funny jokes. See I can understand vertigo and the fact how things seem like there moving, but I can't understand what It's like to hear something, or see something that isn't there. Its probably a big thing with mental illness that people just don't get it.
    I'll tell ya though there is a lot of shit doctors out there that are to quick to push you on drugs.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      5 years ago
      
      I can't understand what they're saying. Only make out words like one said suitcases, so I just guessed it was trying to sell them, since the voice had a old 1900 accent that sounded like it was trying to haggle the suitcase, hard to explain.
      
      Seen shit too when I was little like the hallway door slamming it self closed when all the windows in the house were closed. And a hairdryer/straightener cord putting it's self back into the basket when I was in bed. And I know I wasn't asleep because I told my mum straight away and she was sharing the bed with me.
      
      Yeah that's why I got off them, but also because I'm taking the wrong drugs anyway. But it would be ideal to have a solution which didn't involve drugs to stop the freaky shit from happening.
      
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Vvaas

5 years ago

if you can put up with it you should be fine, if it gets worse then you should seek help although there isn't really much they can do, they'll give you drugs so you wont see the hallucinations at the cost of you acting like a dead corpse 24/7.

i read you have anger issues, try finding something you can use to take out your anger on as bottling it up is not healthy at all. get a heavy punching bag or something when you're pissed go fuck that punching bag up

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  Yeah I'm hoping if I seek out the hospital that my only option isn't meds. Done more bad then good for me. But if they're actually have more cons then goods why not better than seeing and hearing shit. Just need to decide if it's worth the side effects when I learn about the type of medication for schizophrenia.
  
  That's a good idea, I tried a stress ball but broke it. So think a punching bag is a good idea.
  
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SwickDinging

5 years ago

I wouldn't bother booking in with a psychologist, I would go to the hospital and speak to the on call team about what you're seeing.

They will refer you to the psych reg and you will get tested.

I know it sounds scary to go to the hospital but schizophrenia is very, very serious and you cannot cope with this alone. They will help you. Good luck

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  That does sound scary...
  Psych reg? That's very new to me, is it a brain scan? Or visual test on paper?
  
  Hm be helpful if I did get a diagnosis, but I'm also scared of being right, stupid of me to be scared of that I know. Does this process happen in Aussie hospitals? I should have said before I'm Australian, my fault. And thanks I need all the luck I can get.
  
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  - SwickDinging
    
    5 years ago
    
    Sorry, I used a shortened term without thinking - it's a psychiatry registrar, IE the doctor running the psychiatric ward at the hospital at the time when you go in. Or maybe even the consultant, if they think it's necessary. They will be qualified to deal with this. A psychologist won't be of any use to you with this problem so I'm not surprised you had no luck, and I'm sorry to hear that they've not taken you more seriously and referred you to someone more suitably qualified. They should have done this as soon as you told them about your hallucinations. It's obviously put you off seeking medical help, which is shitty of them. Don't judge all medical help based off that one bad experience, there are people out there who can help you.
    
    The psych reg will do an assessment on you which would probably involve tests but please don't be scared, they aren't invasive and are all designed to help you. Whatever the outcome is you will be helped in the best way that they know how. And contrary to all the shit films out there that don't do their research, schizophrenia treatment has come on leaps and bounds and can be very effective. It could be the difference between you suffering and you leading a relatively normal life.
    
    I'm in Australia too btw and they can definitely do this here. Just walk into your local hospital and tell them exactly what you told us - the voices, the visual hallucinations etc.
    
    I'm so sorry you're going through this OP, schizophrenia is fucking tough to deal with. Don't go through it in silence.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      5 years ago
      
      Okay I might do that.
      My information can still be private if I do that I hope, I don't want doctors or others looking at it.
      
      Oh cool what luck I never knew we had this option in our system. Thought mental health had a limit down here, that's good ha.
      
      Yeah it is, I live with constant fear, think that's what got mistaken as anxiety. Thanks for the help! Really gave me another option which I'd like to follow on with.
      
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      - SwickDinging
        
        5 years ago
        
        What do you mean by your information? You would have to tell the doctors who you are and anything they found would go on your medical record. It wouldn't go beyond doctors and nurses though, if that's what you mean.
        
        This isn't a bad thing though. It means if anything happens in the future and your hallucinations get worse the doctors will know your history straight away and can treat you in the most appropriate way.
        
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        Anonymous Post Author
        
        5 years ago
        
        Yeah that's what I meant but makes sense.
        Just worried about being judged like I have before, but guess they only would access it when I need more help for it and not on a simple check up.
        
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McBean

5 years ago

Google up "schizophrenia self help" for now. There are good ideas online. But to make progress, you will have to find a psychologist that treats schizophrenia and develop a good relationship with him/her.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  I never knew about this at all! Actually helpful but a little challenging. But I still want to give some of them ago.
  Finding social support is going to be the hardest part, definitely not looking for that in friends, guess I'll try another psychologist for that one. The rest seems simple enough thanks!
  
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  - McBean
    
    5 years ago
    
    It seems as if you'll do well if you keep pursuing it. I am told that it takes a lot of effort over time to get to the maintenance phase where schizophrenia is having minimal impact on your life.
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      5 years ago
      
      Seems like there is hope after all!
      And I thought it was a permanent nightmare. Thanks for that!
      
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RoseIsabella

5 years ago

You're not obligated to tell anyone about whatever mental illness you may have.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  Yeah you're right about that.
  I just want it to stop or something to lessen it, if that's even possible. But can I get meds for it somehow or anything else?
  
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  - RoseIsabella
    
    5 years ago
    
    Have you seen a psychiatrist?
    
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    - Anonymous Post Author
      
      5 years ago
      
      Yeah for depression and anxiety but it didn't work and I think it's because I've been mis-diagnosed.
      I have more symptoms that match schizophrenia and I'm not trying to diagnosed my self. Just the shit that's happening to me seems like it I think.
      
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      - RoseIsabella
        
        5 years ago
        
        I hope you can find appropriate help. You probably need to find a different therapist from the last one.
        
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        5 years ago
        
        Yeah thanks and fingers cross.
        Maybe I should try a different place futher away from where I live.
        
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paramore93

5 years ago

If it's fucking with your life talk to psychologist. You're unlikely to get locked up unless you're a danger to yourself or others. Whatever it is, it's good to talk.

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- Anonymous Post Author
  
  5 years ago
  
  See that's what I'm worried about I have anger issues on top of that.
  I sleep with some soft toys for comfort or i'd be awake fearing what would happen next. Now I just have one behind my bed because I woke up choking a toy right around its neck in pure rage.
  Instead of cutting myself when stress, I scratch my self until I bleed, and yeah my anger is explosive.
  And socialising isn't good, I come off very blunt even if I'm talking about something nice like ice cream...
  
  I just have a tiny feeling I would be locked up but at the same time I want some help, just don't know what level I would have to be a danger to my self....
  
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Anonymous Post Author

5 years ago

...Okay guess I'll keep it to my self then...
At least I can tell reality from fake when I have the hallucinations...For now I guess, just hope it doesn't get worse.

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- Mrown
  
  5 years ago
  
  If you can love with it then just keep it to yourself. You could tell a psychologist if you know one that you trust.
  
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  - Anonymous Post Author
    
    5 years ago
    
    Yeah I think for now I can maybe...
    And to scared to tell anyone anyway, since I've never really had a good psychologist.
    
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