Is it normal to not ever want to be over someone?
In the winter of 2016, my boyfriend of a few years passed away. Obviously, it was very hard for me, and it still is. It’s been of course over a year now since it happened, and I still feel the same. I still love him. Of course I do.
I’ve tried to pursue other people and such, but I’ve always ended up pushing them away because of my own guilt. I feel awful. He died while we were still together, and I don’t think I can bring myself to move on.
I feel as if it’s going to be like this forever. The last thing I want in the world is love, but everyone is always trying to set me up and I don’t want it. I always push them away and end up hurting them, and it hurts me as well. I don’t want to do that to them, but I also feel too guilty to pursue anything with them.
Is it normal to feel like this? To feel guilt and never want to pursue a relationship again? Or am I just holding on too long? Some advice on how to work with grief would be helpful too, because it doesn’t work too well for me. I know I don’t need to pursue a relationship, but this grief is affecting so much more.