Is it normal to hate your own family?

So, I’m all honesty, I don’t love any member of my family. It’s like, yeah they are my family and all, and I would protect them and put the above everyone else, but I don’t love my parents. My mom never cared for me in the first place, she gave birth to me and then just handed me over to my grandmother to be raised, while she lived her life. My dad was never home. I didn’t even know him before him and my mother got divorced. After the divorce, my mother completely forgot about me and spend all her time with her at the time boyfriend and his sons. And now, years later, she’s in another country living with her current boyfriend. My father just started being a father after the split, just to get back at my mom. He wanted to be the one I loved the most out of them, my favorite. And for years he was. I mean, I was on cloud nine, right? My father was actually starting to give a shit about me. But years passed, his visits stopped and his calls got fewer, and in the end I saw who he really was. Who they both are. So, do any of you guys know this feeling? Like you’ve been wronged by your family, like you hate them, but you’d still put them above everyone else?