Is it normal to hate myself this much? is it unhealthy? (read description)
ABOUT ME: 23, male, privileged, well-do-do. Very shy, 6'2", decent looks. Still living at home, studying engineering at a university with 3 more years to go after this one is done. Failing 3 of my 5 classes, will disappoint my parents.
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I had a meeting with a chemistry tutor today - a woman in her 30's. The mere fact that she is successful and is studying for her Ph.D. made me feel very belittled by contrast - even though she was a really nice person. I felt so bad that I was trying to hold back tears.
When I go to my Resident-Student Association at my school, there are 2-3 beautiful women on the executive board. I just ASSUME that they have their lives together and are much more responsible, self-directed, etc. than I am.
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Is this unhealthy or abnormal?