Is it normal to hate my father?
i had been suffering from social phobia since around 13 years old.
i once went to a psychiatric counselling for asthma when i was 18. my father was with me. i told the counsellor about my social problem (though i actually did not go there for social phobia counselling.) my father frowned and said that i roamed too much and ignored my problem. he did not know how much trouble i had with people. he also might have thought that it would spoil my studies as i was good at it.
i never got over the phobia. now i am 26
and still have the problem. i went into drugs and wasted my life. never learned life skills, social skills, missed college, did not make friends, got into destructive behaviour, etc as i was obsessed with the phobia. i know i am responsible for myself but i still blame and hate my father no matter how hard i try not to.
iin?