Is it normal to feel this way
I always feel that every person in my life thinks that I am just some weirdo and that they don't care for me as much as I care for them. I always feel that every relationship I have with other people is not real and it would come to an end eventually. I think that I am not loved and maybe I am wrong about it but I still feel this way. I think I've always been a second choice for my friends, they need me when they're sad and I'm always ready to be there for them but when I need them they don't seem to notice that I want them to be with me. And I don't want to force any kind of feelings or expectations on them but I feel bad about it. And its just that I'm a total mess and don't know how to deal with this shit.