I have been married for nearly two years and only recently found out that my husband looks up porn on a regular basis. He also views images and videos of celebrities in sex scenes regularly. I think this upsets me more than the porn because with porn stars I can't imagine that men actually look at the face or remember too much what these women look like (or care) but with celebrities he purposely wants to watch certain ones get it on in films. Also he jerks off over images of women in magazines. I can't even begin to explain how upset I am about this. I discovered it before Christmas only a few weeks after giving birth to our first child. When I was pregnant and was looking for some love he told me that it grossed him out having sex with a pregnant woman but I now know that he was getting his kicks elsewhere. Even before I got pregnant there was very little bedroom action and I now know why. He would make excuses when I tried to make a move on him and we only got pregnant because I practically begged him. With no amount of disrespect to my little girl who is such a blessing, I fear that I have brought her into a home where her father didn't really want her. Basically I asked him to stop and wondered how long it has been going on and he said since I got pregnant. But I knew in my heart that this was a lie and it was longer. last week I found that he'd be jerking off over magazines and know that he hasn't stopped since before Christmas although he promises that he has tried. Basically I feel like many other women here. I'm not attractive and not good enough. If I am uncomfortable with this shouldn't my husband repect my wishes and stop doing this? Maybe he can't if he is addicted though? Maybe he needs professional help. He sounds like he really wants to make our marriage work but I'm just so upset and hurt to the pit of my stomach. If feels like he has cheated on me with countless images. I'd appreciate any comments/advice, Thanks
IIN to feel really down after finding out my boyfriend watches porn
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I have been married for nearly two years and only recently found out that my husband looks up porn on a regular basis. He also views images and videos of celebrities in sex scenes regularly. I think this upsets me more than the porn because with porn stars I can't imagine that men actually look at the face or remember too much what these women look like (or care) but with celebrities he purposely wants to watch certain ones get it on in films. Also he jerks off over images of women in magazines. I can't even begin to explain how upset I am about this. I discovered it before Christmas only a few weeks after giving birth to our first child. When I was pregnant and was looking for some love he told me that it grossed him out having sex with a pregnant woman but I now know that he was getting his kicks elsewhere. Even before I got pregnant there was very little bedroom action and I now know why. He would make excuses when I tried to make a move on him and we only got pregnant because I practically begged him. With no amount of disrespect to my little girl who is such a blessing, I fear that I have brought her into a home where her father didn't really want her. Basically I asked him to stop and wondered how long it has been going on and he said since I got pregnant. But I knew in my heart that this was a lie and it was longer. last week I found that he'd be jerking off over magazines and know that he hasn't stopped since before Christmas although he promises that he has tried. Basically I feel like many other women here. I'm not attractive and not good enough. If I am uncomfortable with this shouldn't my husband repect my wishes and stop doing this? Maybe he can't if he is addicted though? Maybe he needs professional help. He sounds like he really wants to make our marriage work but I'm just so upset and hurt to the pit of my stomach. If feels like he has cheated on me with countless images. I'd appreciate any comments/advice, Thanks