Is it normal to feel like american psycho?

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I'm 18 and I'm not even American... I just tagged this because I feel as if I'm spiralling towards exactly what the main character from that novel was. His depression, anxiety and insecurities, all masked by that suave fascade. I feel EXACTLY like that and I want to know if anyone else is like me. These feelings have become alot more pronounced since I left high school last year. I graduated with marks good enough for university, but not good enough for the course I wanted to study. I then had to study a diploma. This fact crushed me and has left me on a downward spiral since December. I've broken all ties with my high school friends, closed facebook and hardly talk to anyone. This is because of the INTENSE embarressment I feel at not being able to study a degree. It feels unbearble, as if my body is hot and cold at the same time and I feel dizzy. I have a set plan of things to say if ever someone asks me about what I'm studying. I always lie though. My parents compound this embarressment by making me feel worthless for not doing a degree. I hardly speak to them, but whenever I do they manage to edge in something about my course and I feel incandescent with rage. Lately I've been getting angry over inconsequencial things though. This is what worries me.

The only thing I take solace in the fact that I look handsome, and yet when people compliment me I suddenly become angry. WTF?? I dont know what to do. I feel like I can keep my calm fascade for only so long.. Like today I wanted to beat the living #### out of a girl who sat next to me and bothered me with hear earphones in the library. Is what I feel normal?

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  • yeggman
    12 years ago | pl

    I would comment on this but I need to return some video tapes

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  • theabider
    11 years ago | pl

    I loved the movie. Christian Bale is so hot. Heck, if you look anything like him, I'll date you, but if you slice me up with a chainsaw, and put me in your freezer, I'm afraid I'll have to dump you. :P

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago | pl

    You like Huey Lewis and the News?

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  • timebobbu
    12 years ago | pl

    all you need is a GF.. dont make excuses

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      12 years ago | pl

      Don't come here and try to cause shit... Piss off!

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  • purpleflower
    11 years ago | pl

    Wow, really sucks most of the comments on here are jokes or hate. I went through something like this about a year ago, wondering about how much I felt I could relate to Patrick Bateman. Accept, instead of relating to his downward emotional spiral, I was fascinated by him killing people, cutting them up and putting them in a freezer. I wondered if I could ever do something like that. Then I felt disgusted, but intrigued, but disgusted, but intrigued.
    But this doesn't mean I couldn't relate to his downward spiral at all. I think you are going though a time when you think the world is coming to an end all around you, but everyone else seems calm. I know that sometime soon, maybe a year or so, you'll think back to when you felt this way, and you'll think 'hey, I feel better now then I did then'. Wondering how you progressed to this point you'll know that there was no spark or moment, nothing that you really did. You'll just be.. better.
    This happened to me. There was no moment that made me feel better, but one thing I know that contributed is all the new people that I had met and become friends with. Now, I know people can easily tell you to 'just make some new friends' and you roll your eyes at them. But these new people had new ideas and activities that will want to talk about and do, and that helped distract me from the imploding mess that was inside my head. I relaxed gradually. And they didn't even know they had helped me so much.
    And as for the whole 'bothered by the girl with the earphones in the library', it is completely normal to think that, and some of the most normal people think about that stuff. Just as long as you don't ACTUALLY beat the living shit out of her.

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  • Iamanonymous
    12 years ago | pl

    BOTTOMLINE : AMERICAN PSYCHO IS NOT NORMAL !!!!

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago | pl

    You sound nothing like Patrick bateman. No worries I feel the same too but still you havent described anything that sounds like the American psycho character.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      12 years ago | pl

      I posted a rather in depth IIN article in which fully explained myself, and what I thought were possible reasons for my behaviour. That article got rejected.

      I got pissed off and then tried to post another article. That one hot turned doen as well and this is what we're left with. I'm not trying to be funny or look for attention. I genuinly think something is wrong with me. Today, the simple act of my grandather encouraging me over the phone made me cry after I hung up. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me.

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      • [Old Memory]
        12 years ago | pl

        Alot of people think there is somethng wrong with them but I would be lying if I said you sounded like Patrick Bateman, something may be wrong with you like there is many others but it doesnt sound the same as in american psycho.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          12 years ago | pl

          He goes though a lot of depersonalization doesn't he? I've been doing exactly that since high school. As if the persona I allow others to percieve is just a well reahearsed illusion. And I'm constantly awear of my act and check myself to make sure i'm doing saying the right things i want people to think. I also get INCREDIBLY frustrated and angry when someone happens to see past my reahearsed persona... Like crazy angry. As I have to end a conversation and remove myself.

          Do other people here also experience intense depersonalization?

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          • [Old Memory]
            12 years ago | pl

            Alot of people go through what you go through but it still is nothing like Patrick bateman.

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          • timebobbu
            12 years ago | pl

            The expression is more apt than it is even in China; for to lose one's face is to lose one's spirit, which is truly the 'face', the dancing mask, the right to incarnate a spirit and wear an emblem or totem. It is the veritable persona which is at stake, and it can be lost in the potlatch just as it can be lost in the game of gift-giving, in war, or through some error in ritual.

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            • Anonymous Post Author
              12 years ago | pl

              So you're saying everyone has a false persona? Its something that SHOULD be had..?

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  • SweetSherry
    12 years ago | pl

    Get some pussy

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      12 years ago | pl

      Just fuck off

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