Is it normal to be too embarrassed to hurt/kìll myself?

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I really wanna do it but I'm embarrassed by the thought of anyone I know finding out I feel this way. I see a therapist and I filled out a questionnaire that put me as being suìcidal, and when the doctor asked about that I actually laughed because I was so embarrassed. She always asks at the end if I "feel safe" to go and be alone, and it's so embarrassing. I also want to hurt myself but I don't want it to be obvious, so I do it in more discreet, internal ways. IIN? I even censored the words here with accent marks just so I wouldn't get that stupid "feeling suìcidal" tagged on to my post.

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  • Youngvictoria
    6 years ago

    Why not dedicate your life to a cause instead? It's an escape and you don't have to feel embarassed. Like become a monk or dedicate yourself to a charity cause. Then in time you may learn to love life again.

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  • My_name_was_already__used
    6 years ago

    Look, you've got a lot to live for! If you feel like your gonna do it please call 1-800-273-8255

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  • sarahJackson
    6 years ago

    The entire world is suffering together. You are not alone. You should be embarressed to do it because it's weak and your not the only one on the world who struggles, people just have to keep going and you want to give up. We all have to try in life, you're not the only one.

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  • bulbasaur64
    6 years ago

    I feel this way too and it's pretty awful to go through. Maybe you empathize too much with the doctor/therapist and worry that you feeling bad will make them feel bad? Or maybe you have had your feelings ignored or mocked in the past, so you feel guilty for talking about them? Whatever the case, your feelings are not shameful or embarrassing, regardless of what your mind tells you. Please try to tell your therapist how you really feel -- it's their job to help you, and they're trained to deal with thoughts/emotions like what you are experiencing.

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