Is it normal to be self-conscious over testicular cancer scar
I have a very rough wide scar from up the side of my sack that curves horizontal along my waist band. I had a very butchered tumor removal after being diagnosed with testicular cancer at 16. I'm 22 now and am left with a very ugly scar, not a thin white scar, it's wide and has the stringy stretch mark texture, and no hair grows on it. Also I'm minus one nut now (I got an implant so I'm not lopsided)
I'm super self conscious about my scar and usually fuck or get sucked off with my boxers still on to avoid the awkward conversation about it. Also I can't give the necessary... payload... due to being one man down.
Am I being reasonable? How would you react to a very ugly scar down with the intimates?