Is it normal to be scared of spending money?
I have autism and i'm very poor unemployed all my money (my income now is only 371 $) goes to help with rent as my mom is unemployed too due to covid-19 and I have almost nothing left. I have been offered work practice finally to find out what my capabilities are this means bus rides everyday a bus card for a month costs around 56 $ possibly more as I know they increase the prices recently. On top of that I have finally gotten offered a spot in social skills practice once a week with other autistic adults. And of course work practice gives 0 salary.
I asked to get work practice anywhere in my town and they said they forbid me from doing work practice here because the employment agency has a cooperation with companies in the city and that is all they care about - to put people at those companies and earn money from collaborating. They even said if I refuse one of those companies they will no longer care about helping me. So a threat. Its not even allowed for them to say this.
I can technically afford bus card because a year ago I had to take a study loan which I have 225$ left from. I could apply for getting special income to afford bus but to get approved that income you have to be literally dirt poor. I was crying when I had to take the loan even those it was a very small loan and I wanted to not use all of it but now I am forced to. On top of that I have bills dating years back I was unaware of and which have increased over the years. Altogether I probably have near 225$ in bills from healthcare visits. How can I do this ?! Things are finally going well in getting my work practice and the social skills group but I am poor ! How to fix my bills ?! I am very anxious and its very very bad situation.