Is it normal to be scared of spending money?

I have autism and i'm very poor unemployed all my money (my income now is only 371 $) goes to help with rent as my mom is unemployed too due to covid-19 and I have almost nothing left. I have been offered work practice finally to find out what my capabilities are this means bus rides everyday a bus card for a month costs around 56 $ possibly more as I know they increase the prices recently. On top of that I have finally gotten offered a spot in social skills practice once a week with other autistic adults. And of course work practice gives 0 salary.

I asked to get work practice anywhere in my town and they said they forbid me from doing work practice here because the employment agency has a cooperation with companies in the city and that is all they care about - to put people at those companies and earn money from collaborating. They even said if I refuse one of those companies they will no longer care about helping me. So a threat. Its not even allowed for them to say this.

I can technically afford bus card because a year ago I had to take a study loan which I have 225$ left from. I could apply for getting special income to afford bus but to get approved that income you have to be literally dirt poor. I was crying when I had to take the loan even those it was a very small loan and I wanted to not use all of it but now I am forced to. On top of that I have bills dating years back I was unaware of and which have increased over the years. Altogether I probably have near 225$ in bills from healthcare visits. How can I do this ?! Things are finally going well in getting my work practice and the social skills group but I am poor ! How to fix my bills ?! I am very anxious and its very very bad situation.

Is It Normal?
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  • I'm with RoseIsabella. It's likely best to at least initially work though the support organizations short term.

    Long term you should try to find a success orientated person to mentor you. You likely have skills and abilities - and dreams - that the support organizations are not going to look for or know how to enable you to succeed with them.

    I wish you the best. PM me if you'd like more information and to talk one on one.

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  • Do you have a truck? If so you can go pick up scrap metal, ppl on craigslist give it away.

    You can sell plasma.

    Do you have health insurance? Even if not you can go to a suboxone program, tell the doctor youre hooked on opiates, they will give you suboxones they sell for 20 a piece youll get about 60 a month. Thats 1200 a month. I did that for years.

    Or find a doctor that will write you xanax for your anxiety. Sell those 6-8 a piece.

    Or go on craigslist under gigs theres always some work that needs to be done.

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  • Pretty sure you can sell your plasma. Think you can also do surveys online. Doesnt pay much but something.

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  • Well, a weekend job never hurts. It's how I make a bit of extra cash to blow (or use right in corona times)... Try finding a second job that's fun, or at least tolerable.

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    • Its very hard now to find any job except in hospitals and such and I could not handle it mentally or physically so im not sure what else to look for but I send in applications every month for the little thats available

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  • Are there any organizations that are dedicated to helping autistic people that might be able to assist you?

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    • Yes but they dont say much just I should apply for special income to afford bus rides but I doubt it will be approved but I could try I guess I dont know how long the process is tho and I need it now

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      • You'll never know unless you try, but I can understand your reluctance. I have a tendency to prefer things that are a sure thing.

        Do you get food stamps? If you don't get food stamps you should apply.

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  • The answer is both yes and no.

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