Is it normal to be depressed?

Its normal for you probably because you sound like you set yourself up for the fall. Listen to people that are motivational speakers. Think, feel, talk, dream, positive. Everything you do your going into it negatively. Negativity breeds negativity.
You need to wake up and be positive no matter what. Wake up telling yourself its goi g to be a great day, etc. I know, i was there before too. That negative thought process sucks.

Hang in there bud, things will turn around in your favor.
Or at least that's what my fortune cookie read. ;-)

Sounds like my life

There will surely be a fine when you will feel everything is going right wait for it

You're actually not tired of living. You're tired of not living and I definitely know how that feels but things do change especially when you least expect it.

If you’re depressed try doing things you like and find a therapist to help you through it.

take antidepressants plus benzos.

Yes

Get over yourself. You’re letting yourself feel that way and you just need to start living in the real world and finding stuff to take your mind off it.