Is it normal to always want to kill yourself?

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I had a very well adjusted friend that told me that everyone contemplated suicide once in their lives but for me it's all the time. I'm not particularly serious about it but I always have it on the back of my mind. You know when you enter rooms and a paranoid part of your mind plans an exit strategy? Most days it's like that but with suicide. Like here I could walk into traffic, there I could hang myself, here I could get drunk and fall asleep on the snow - things like that.

Today I was crossing the street and a man in a van closeby saw me and stepped on the pedal to the ground. He didn't get me because I was already going kinda fast and the van was kinda heavy for the motor. I felt I witnessed evil: the violent, uncontrolled urge someone had to run over a human. He almost got me and it was deliberate and I still didn't change the speed I was walking at when I realized it, my heart didn't race, I felt nothing but the regret over an opportunity passed. To be fair, the hit wouldn't have killed me, just hurt me. I'm not into that. But I walked away thinking "Huh. That man really just tried to kill me" as if I were talking about ice cream.

I'm constantly just looking for an excuse to die. Do you feel like that?

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Based on 28 votes (11 yes)
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  • horny_simpletons
    5 years ago

    I highly suggest seeing a therapist. Not everybody contemplates suicide but it is quite common, however it is NEVER the answer.

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  • ghostsalad
    5 years ago

    no please get help

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  • Toenails
    5 years ago

    I as well have thoughts of ending it but are fuled by anxiety and self-loathing. That being said I would still say it’s not normal and would suggest trying some sort of antidepressants etc.

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  • Nickvey
    5 years ago

    you could be like that Tulsa kid that kills his family but little kenney called the cops on his cell before he dies and they find you covered in blood down the street claiming voices made you do it. BTW kenney doesn't deserve murder .

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      you're projecting a lot here lmao are you okay???? is everything alright?

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  • Nickvey
    5 years ago

    i bet you are one of those democrats that steals a gun and sneaks it it school where you shoot five students and 2.5 teachers, then you surrender to the cops hoping everyone loves you now because you are getting rid of guns . how am i doing am i getting warmer?

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    • Xshot12
      5 years ago

      He never said anything about want to kill anyone.. he didn't even imply it..

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