Is it normal that my trust issues got so bad that i actually became more open?

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People have repeatedly disappointed me in the past. Being innocent, submisive, sensitive and overly "nice" have earned me only abuse from others. I grew quite cynical with time and I started being more and more skeptical over most people. As the years passed, I stopped opening to people... I was quite secretive and extremely reserved, I didn't talk about anything with anyone. I also stopped being nice with people or showing my weak side.

I stopped having friends at some point and was truly alone for quite a while.... yet... the few people that appeared every now and then in my life managed to somehow disappoint me again.

Right now I truly can't trust anyone... Yet... for some reason, I stopped caring about being hurt or betrayed. I just realized that it is inevitable and that people are just like that.

Now I am extremely open... I keep nothing to myself, I have no secrets and I really have nothing to hide anymore. People are still shitty and they use these to try to hurt me... but I just don't care... I also always do people favors, I not even care if they are ungrateful afterwards, I just do it because I want to.

I certainly haven't regained my hope in humanity at all... yet... I am a surprisingly kind with people now and I don't thing anyone notices how little I actually like people.

So... Is this normal?

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  • boom12345678
    10 years ago | pl

    yepppp numb to the feeling.

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  • ddrftw
    6 years ago | pl

    Though I do feel that there are alot of people in your shoes, but not everyone is out to get you. It's truly unfortunate that you went through all that, but there are good in some people and I hope you will oneday find them and put your heart to ease. Best of luck to you.

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  • starie
    10 years ago | pl

    You must be surrounded by the wrong people or something about you makes you think you've been treated badly when actually you haven't.

    Either way, assuming you have truly been mistreated by others so many times as you say, then i would say it's normal. Well, I understand it atleast...

    You've been treated like shit by people so many times that you've become numb to it. It doesn't affect you anymore. You just shrug it off like it's nothing because, in your mind, it's an expected reality.

    I wouldn't do them any favors though. People who don't deserve your kindness, shouldn't get it. If they don't give a damn about you then why give a damn about them?

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