Is it normal that i wish i was normal because it would make life easier?

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I feel like I am weird, but I also feel Ike everyone is weird too.

What I mean is the idea of being normal sounds weird to me, but it seems so much easier and less emotionally taxing.

I could go get my hair cut clean and short, some Abercrombie clothes and Nike shoes, pretend to be disgusted by people with sexual curiosities and make the same boring jokes and people would be nice to me.

They'd laugh with me and spend meaningless time with me, and I could find a normal girl to like me.

At the same time, the two closest friendships I've ever had were people just as weird as me. Some of the strongest most confident people I've ever met were very unique and did not sit well with most people, even though they're good human beings who do good things.

It's like I be myself and get rejected and judged by most of society and learn to fight for my self identity at the expense of social and career opportunities or I take a break from being anything and just clone into the normal world where I'm safe and emotionally numb, it would make my parents and the rest of my family happy and I could take the career-marry-kids life plan and finally feel like people are glad to see me at the family 4th of July BBQ and not just smiling at me because I'm related to them, why can't I just be me without having to worry about people wanting to fight me or being disgusted or scared of me or even just completely uninterested in me just because I don't look and act normal?

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  • squirrelgirl
    10 years ago | pl

    It sounds like you are very insecure about being true to yourself and accepting your own quirks. I know how it is, because I am the same way. It all comes down to the question: do you want to please society, or please yourself?

    Society is much harder to please because no matter what you do with your life, someone is going to disagree with it, and maybe even mock you for it.

    You're better off just doing what makes YOU happy and not giving a crap what other people think. It's easier said than done, I know; I struggle with it every day. But eventually you reach a point where you realize that, when you're all alone with your thoughts, it's you who has to live with the choices that you make.

    So would you rather make yourself miserable by chasing the abstract, unattainable ideal of normalcy, or would you rather live life the way YOU want to, gain the love and respect of your fellow freaks, and die with no regrets? The choice is yours.

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  • ThisIsImpossible
    10 years ago | pl

    I know that, but most people choose to hide everything different about them to appear to be "normal"

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  • gummy_jr
    10 years ago | pl

    Everyone is a little strange.

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    • Dastosh
      9 years ago | pl

      But some people are so strange that almost everyone thinks they're crazy

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  • Dastosh
    9 years ago | pl

    Realize 2 things, weirdo!
    1. You simply CAN'T BE absolutely normal.
    2. Most often the word "wishing" is MEANINGLESS.
    You're almost the same like me!
    1 more thing - HUMANITY SUCKS (overall)

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