IIN That I want to be religious, but can't?

I also tried but I realize my beliefs are closer to paganism or spirituality. I picked a branch in paganism and learning about it therefore, it's way better than traditional religions anyway because it's more free and not full of a bunch of judgmental highly strung jerks (although those exist in all forms of beliefs). If you want to believe in something but christianity is not for you there's plenty other religions to choose from that you can convert to, or just be generally spiritual and do your own thing. You can believe there is a higher power without calling it "God", personally I just call it the universe and to me it's basically just the source of all positive high vibrational energy which we can tap into through for example meditation.