IIN that I'm married but I love cocksucking

I have sucked two cocks years ago and for years have wanted to do it again on a regular basis, but don't really know how to go about hooking up with another man. I travel some and stay at motels with indoor pools hoping that some night the 'right' guy will give me that look or make the first pass and then it would be on! Up to my room and a long night of fun. I love to look at porn of men on men and jack off to it and always have big hard great cums dreaming that its me doing and getting it. I keep hoping