Is it normal that i'm afraid to tell my parents that i cut because of my mom?
Okay here's the story.
I cut myself for the first time 2 years ago in 8th grade. I had heard about it as a way to cope with emotional pain so, out of curiosity, I decided to try it. I became addicted to it. I did it whenever a negative emotion overpowered me, and I still do. I stopped for a while, but recently I've been going through a lot. A couple weeks ago I remembered how much cutting myself helped, and I started to do it again for the first time in 4 months. My most recent episode was 2 nights ago. I cut myself on my arm 17 times.
Now, on to the part about my mom. About a year ago, my mom had heard about kids my age cutting themselves as a way to deal with pain. She brought it up one day in a conversation, and I thought she was on to me. This is what she said: "I heard about this strange phenomenon. Did you know that kids have been cutting themselves to deal with emotional pain? That's absurd. If I ever find out that you did something like that, I'm putting you right in a mental asylum. I won't even think twice about it."
As I said before, it's been 2 nights since my most recent episode, in which I cut myself 17 times on my arm, the most I've ever done in one episode. I know that I need help, but I'm afraid to tell my parents because of what my mom said to me. I'm not crazy and I don't belong in an asylum, but apparently my mom will put me in one if I tell her...