Giving you the benefit of the doubt and assuming you're not a troll (honestly don't know why people automatically think this), I wish to tell you that not only is it normal- it's probably a good thing. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be more than a minimum that you feel is expected of you.
I know as a whole, society has evolved and women are now expected to do more than give birth and clean, but there really are still communities that see this as a form of completion. And that women are strange or special or stand out when they worry about things outside of their traditional roles. Some people still value these limits. And there are still a surprising amount of men (AND women) that just can not accept that women have more to them than what they have always been told be, to like, and to want. The argument that someone else made that "you don't see men whining about it" is not only irrelevant, but invalid. First of all, yes, men whine all the time. Second, men always had more opportunities in terms of pursuits, and were allowed more dynamic presences in the past. Just because things are changing doesn't mean everything is where it should be. Or that everyone accepts these changes. To think so is naive and dismissive. Plus, perhaps it's a family thing. Your parents and their parent's parents could have operated this way, and embraced a set of values that society not so long ago ultimately viewed as normal or proper. Or perhaps you just grew up with a circle that especially emphasized these things, or maybe you got called out once about it- triggering the concern. It's all possible. If you had said that you blame particular people for not pursuing your own interests and have decided not to do anything but vocalize your blame - then we could talk more about laziness. But all I see right now is you saying that you don't feel like you fit into a mold that has literally been shaped and forced for ages.
Political discussions aside, and to actually address what you're asking rather than just voice an agenda, I'd like to say that I can relate. Maybe in a slighlty different way, but I essentially went through a similar issue when I was younger. Mine were probably more self-esteem based issues, but I used to worry that I wasn't "female" enough due to my interests. I like good make-up and high-heels as much as any girl- but that's because I love LOTS of things. These aren't reigning priorities. I used to be worried that my bigger interests leaned more on the masculine side of things. Which is honestly effing crazy because what does that honestly mean? It's just the way that society has brainwashed itself. I remember feeling once that I wanted to walk in men's shoes, and live in their world. Mostly because at the time, they were known to do such things, most kf the time. I wondered whether these things meant I didn't classify as a woman, and if a separate classification existed or something, because I totally didn't feel like a dude, and I didn't feel like NOT-a girl, but my interests were vastly different from my female peers. The thing is- I am a woman, and happy to be. Like you, I have mostly feminine traits, and never had an issue with my actual sex or sexual interests. Just my hobbies, my values, and what I wanted out of life. I am enlightened enough know to now how stupid it sounds, and that it isn't even a question whether women can want to have or do the same things as men without being abnormal, and that we really are who we want to be. But I was young and I had tons of thoughts that I honestly don't think were that unusual. But I think the fact that this was as little as 10 years ago says a lot. I also live and grew up in a rather urban setting with many diverse ways of living, in America, so it wasn't like I was completely ignorant or removed, either.
The fact is that most people are shallow, and only have a basic set of interests. Man or woman. For ages, men were told to like things like fast cars and football, and women were told to like things like dresses and tea parties. Of course, everything is obviously more complex than that, but most people in our daily lives are pretty average. So not only are their interests probably going to be limited to begin with, they're probably only going to like what their "supposed" to. And probably without even realizing it. I always thought I was different, but the truth is- I'm really not. I just like things. All kinds. And I maybe just had a head start on realizing all that is out there. It may not be normal per other people's standards and I think it's only a bad thing in the sense that this type of insecurity still happens. But having more interests than your contemporaries only means that you're probably smarter. Not that something is wired incorrectly. And for those responding with things that suggest that you're not on the same page as them, or are bothered by the fact that you would even think the way that you think (like, omg): Literally nothing is ever black and white. I can think of 100 different psychological or sociological reasons as to why this was an issue for you that don't include my own expectations of the human race. I can think of a million different things that are actually wrong to question. Everyone has a unique concern in their lives, or compulsive thought
And just as a potential disclaimer for others: I love men. I've had the great fortune of knowing many, many wonderful men (and women) throughout my life. REALLY awful ones too- but mostly good. While I'm not naive enough to believe that all people are really equal, or ever were (only that they should be), I choose to only dislike people who are actively hateful. My feminist ideas do not come from a place of general hatred, only improvement. I say that not to convince anyone, but because I value my ideas and don't want them to be misplaced or generalized by others.
Hope this helps answer your question, and to help you realize that you're definitely not crazy.
IIN that I have trouble accepting my gender?
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Giving you the benefit of the doubt and assuming you're not a troll (honestly don't know why people automatically think this), I wish to tell you that not only is it normal- it's probably a good thing. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be more than a minimum that you feel is expected of you.
I know as a whole, society has evolved and women are now expected to do more than give birth and clean, but there really are still communities that see this as a form of completion. And that women are strange or special or stand out when they worry about things outside of their traditional roles. Some people still value these limits. And there are still a surprising amount of men (AND women) that just can not accept that women have more to them than what they have always been told be, to like, and to want. The argument that someone else made that "you don't see men whining about it" is not only irrelevant, but invalid. First of all, yes, men whine all the time. Second, men always had more opportunities in terms of pursuits, and were allowed more dynamic presences in the past. Just because things are changing doesn't mean everything is where it should be. Or that everyone accepts these changes. To think so is naive and dismissive. Plus, perhaps it's a family thing. Your parents and their parent's parents could have operated this way, and embraced a set of values that society not so long ago ultimately viewed as normal or proper. Or perhaps you just grew up with a circle that especially emphasized these things, or maybe you got called out once about it- triggering the concern. It's all possible. If you had said that you blame particular people for not pursuing your own interests and have decided not to do anything but vocalize your blame - then we could talk more about laziness. But all I see right now is you saying that you don't feel like you fit into a mold that has literally been shaped and forced for ages.
Political discussions aside, and to actually address what you're asking rather than just voice an agenda, I'd like to say that I can relate. Maybe in a slighlty different way, but I essentially went through a similar issue when I was younger. Mine were probably more self-esteem based issues, but I used to worry that I wasn't "female" enough due to my interests. I like good make-up and high-heels as much as any girl- but that's because I love LOTS of things. These aren't reigning priorities. I used to be worried that my bigger interests leaned more on the masculine side of things. Which is honestly effing crazy because what does that honestly mean? It's just the way that society has brainwashed itself. I remember feeling once that I wanted to walk in men's shoes, and live in their world. Mostly because at the time, they were known to do such things, most kf the time. I wondered whether these things meant I didn't classify as a woman, and if a separate classification existed or something, because I totally didn't feel like a dude, and I didn't feel like NOT-a girl, but my interests were vastly different from my female peers. The thing is- I am a woman, and happy to be. Like you, I have mostly feminine traits, and never had an issue with my actual sex or sexual interests. Just my hobbies, my values, and what I wanted out of life. I am enlightened enough know to now how stupid it sounds, and that it isn't even a question whether women can want to have or do the same things as men without being abnormal, and that we really are who we want to be. But I was young and I had tons of thoughts that I honestly don't think were that unusual. But I think the fact that this was as little as 10 years ago says a lot. I also live and grew up in a rather urban setting with many diverse ways of living, in America, so it wasn't like I was completely ignorant or removed, either.
The fact is that most people are shallow, and only have a basic set of interests. Man or woman. For ages, men were told to like things like fast cars and football, and women were told to like things like dresses and tea parties. Of course, everything is obviously more complex than that, but most people in our daily lives are pretty average. So not only are their interests probably going to be limited to begin with, they're probably only going to like what their "supposed" to. And probably without even realizing it. I always thought I was different, but the truth is- I'm really not. I just like things. All kinds. And I maybe just had a head start on realizing all that is out there. It may not be normal per other people's standards and I think it's only a bad thing in the sense that this type of insecurity still happens. But having more interests than your contemporaries only means that you're probably smarter. Not that something is wired incorrectly. And for those responding with things that suggest that you're not on the same page as them, or are bothered by the fact that you would even think the way that you think (like, omg): Literally nothing is ever black and white. I can think of 100 different psychological or sociological reasons as to why this was an issue for you that don't include my own expectations of the human race. I can think of a million different things that are actually wrong to question. Everyone has a unique concern in their lives, or compulsive thought
And just as a potential disclaimer for others: I love men. I've had the great fortune of knowing many, many wonderful men (and women) throughout my life. REALLY awful ones too- but mostly good. While I'm not naive enough to believe that all people are really equal, or ever were (only that they should be), I choose to only dislike people who are actively hateful. My feminist ideas do not come from a place of general hatred, only improvement. I say that not to convince anyone, but because I value my ideas and don't want them to be misplaced or generalized by others.
Hope this helps answer your question, and to help you realize that you're definitely not crazy.