Is it normal that i feel extremely cheap to go along the lifestyle of my friend
Honestly, my friend is ballin. Compared to me anyways. She receives a 50 dollar allowance a week from her dad who lives far away, and when she does see him he takes her shopping and shit. She always eats out(I usually bring lunch now) and she has credit cards which makes online shopping a breeze. I forgot to mention she applied to 20 universities without a fee waiver and will go to a UC no loans needed.
Me however, have no job or allowance and I have to look forward to my birthday and christmas for money.
She wants me and her to go to this meet up out of town where we have to dress in expensive costumes. Including the actual ticket to get in, wigs, shoes, etc. I don't have a steady amount of money. Like if I spend money for this event now, I'll never see that amount in months. My friend already bought 300 dollars worth for the costumes. I got mine for 15 bucks but its pretty plain.
To top it all off, in the summer, we are going to this expo where it is crucial to invest in a minimum 300 dollar cosplay plus tickets.
I kept to myself before high school with no close friends and I never realized how much money I had then compared to now. Now, I'm always short on money.
She's a good friend, but honestly I'm so broke it is slowly killing me.