Is it normal that i fantasize about being killed?
It's been that way, lately. Brutally chopped into bits with a pickaxe. I imagine feeling relief, catharsis, as if I had been cleansed and punished for sins or impurities that existed in me.
It's not normal. I know that much. Then what is it?
PS., it's not sexual. I am into BDSM, but this doesn't exactly turn me on.