Is it normal that i can't help but feel this way?
So I have been in love with the same girl for multiple years.
She's five months younger than me, and lives right down the road. I met her in high school, she was a sophomore and I was a junior. I never told her how much she meant to me until after I graduated because she had a boyfriend and I was just happy I got to be around her for a few hours a day. she ended her relationship with said dude when I was a senior and I didn't want her to feel like I was trying to catch her on the rebound so I didn't say anything for a couple months. When I did tell her I was in love with her I already knew she didnt feel the same way, but I just couldn't go on pretending I didn't love her.
Her parents are absolutely crazy and won't allow her to see any men at all unless they are there. They track her phone, read her texts all the time, and don't like me because they don't know who I am and won't allow me to see her in person. The only contact I can make with her is over phone so we talk almost all day literally every day, and it's been that way since I graduated.
I feel like I'm crazy for it, but I just can't get over her. I know she doesn't love me, I know I can't even see her in person, and worse yet she's working really hard to go off to university to get away from her family. It terrifies me to think that she would have so much freedom she never had before and the opportunity to sleep with whoever she wants with no one to stop her.
Even with all that I just cannot stop being in love with her. Other women have been interested in me since I last saw her, but they don't mean anything to me compared to her. I can't even look at another woman without immediately thinking about her, and I don't know what to do.
I guess when it comes down to it, my question is this: am I stupid for being so head over heels for a girl that I know I can never be with?
There's nothing wrong with that | 1 | |
It's stupid, you should be able to move on | 5 |