Is it normal that i am completely obsessed with the columbine tradgedy?

I researched Columbine about 4 days ago, and I got super interested in the subject. I completely oppose what Eric and Dylan did, because nobody deserved to die that day, but I love them both and I wish I they were my best friends! I am in love with Dylan Klebold. He looked like such a nice boy who was depressed and wanted love. I wish I was there for him."I'm full of love and no one wants it" is what he said. Him combined with Eric made a toxic friendship, but they both had souls and were people too. I respect them and the victims. I'm sure you all probably think I am sick. Lately I've been obsessed with this subject, hoping to have dreams of them, and they've been on my mind 24/7. First thing in the morning I think about them, throughout the day I think about them, and the last thing I do at night is go on the page "acolumbinesite.com" to read their journals. I've been so sad and angry because their story is sad, and what they did was worse, and it's just a subject that has impacted my life so much, even though I wasn't involved in any of it. Also because it hurts me to know that these boys are dead, were hurting, they killed, caused hurting families, and created such a big tragedy and trauma. I HAVE AN OBSESSION AND I THINK I NEED HELP!