Is it normal that i am completely obsessed/in love with my best friend?

It's not healthy to depend so much on another person. If what you say is true, that you considered suicide over this person, you should really reevaluate your way of thinking. Maybe back off a bit form this guy and go out with some other friends.

Dude, I feel for you. I know how it is to feel a great social connection to an individual who you are unsure of if the feeling is mutual. Talk to him about it a LITTLE BIT, I emphasize this because if you go on he'll obviously get annoyed faster than sympathetic. ( You probably already figured that but still ) I can imagine your situation and my best advice is for you to just try to the best of your abilities to give yourself opportunities to meet up with him. Develop more memories, he'll realize then that you have something going socially. Don't worry about being emotional dude, crying about this to him would make you an " emotional bitch " but just writing about it for advice is being concerned and noble for making an effort to maintain your relationship. Best of luck, lata brah!

the reality of it is you have allowed yourself to become dependent on someone, you probably have few friends and so you cling to your best.

people change but and it sounds like he doesn't want to be like that anymore and has moved on, you should do the same, it will suck for a while but eventually you will get over it.

you think i'm wrong right now and you will never get over it but you will trust me, relationships seam so important at the time but you will be surprised how easy they are to forget. move on, get new friends, think about yourself a little more.

You said you were a sociable person so try to branch out and make other friends; it seems like that may be what your friend is already doing. He may feel like he doesn't want to be socially dependent on you. If you both maintain your friendship but also branch out a little you'll be better prepared for going to seperate colleges.

@Naga129 - Possibly look up how to correctly use ellipses. I wouldn't say you're "craZee" that just sounds like a fulfilling platonic relationship that you value.

been together so long he's like your brother. try to keep him as a friend but not your only friend. find some other people to pass time with too.

I've had the same relationship...almost exactly, but we're females. If you grow up with someone, they are more like family than friends...you can do things together that may seem weird if it was just a normal friend...be thankful you have him in your life...it's rare

Now I will reply to this quite honestly when I say... I am very VERY similar to your position right now... I've had a friend since little leuge or grade 2 and we've been the best of friends ever since ... Recently we have been apart and it makes life a hell to the both of us.. I relied on him to .. Protect me from the dam college dropouts and to keep new ideas flowing for my book and he relied on me for basically ... Wepons remote controls ect. We've always looked up to eachother but it's becoming quite impossible ... But listen if your friendship is anywhere near as close to the one I told you about.... Well then he still is your friend but he is becoming busy... You will always remain friends at heart ... But in the longrun time is becoming short and you need to make a BIG impression on him you need to make a imprint in his mind to make him remember you ... Just always remember he isn't your friend he's your Family ... Wow now I don't feel normal
Am I normal
20% normal
80% insane
Well I guess I'll be back after I fix me craZee
(jk)

Kinda normal in some parts. i think its a platonic love you're feeling. basically its how you love your family, he's like a brother to you. and i would try to get a girl, any kind of girl because maybe he thinks you're becoming gay and that would make him not want to hang out with you.