Is it normal if i laugh at the fact that i'm depressed?

I guess I have been in depression since a little kid, I just thought I was sad and things will get better. Well now that I'm older, I recognize the fact that I am depressed and no, it hasn't gotten any better. Unfortunately, the older you get, the more you think and know things so these factors haven't helped my depression one bit. In addition, the fact I have "fallen in love" also DEF hasn't helped my depression. If anything, it's made it worse and just pin-pointed everything that I am unhappy with about myself.

Soooo...being in depression for a while now has just made me look at it in a less painful way. I can be sarcastic about it, whether Im by myself or with someone else and I hint Im depressed but they don't get it. Being depressed is not just being sad all the time, it's a really stable state of mind; you can laugh, be happy about something, but deep inside you're still unhappy. A few people describe me as this "socialite" but they don't know that inside I'm dead. Others do see this down, laid-back person so if I tell them I am depressed, I don't think they will find TOO surprising but still a little shocked.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is that Im so depressed, it feels permanent, that there's nothing I can do but poke fun at it just to lighten things up a little. It doesn't feel forced either, it feels okay to laugh at it a little.