Is it normal i think i'm not a nice person?
I'm not looking for validation or comforting. I'm just thinking out loud and hoping to get some interesting feedback.
I don't think I'm a nice person. My actions appear nice, but the thought behind it isn't what others may think I guess. I do things because it's common sense. If someone is crying, it's common sense to ask what's wrong and see if you can be of assistance. If someone looks lost, it's common sense to give them directions. Though it may seem like I'm going out my way to help another person I don't feel as if I am. If I have the money, resources, or time to assist someone who clearly needs assistance then why not? Yet when people reject my help, I walk away and been called cold for doing so... but what else am I to do? Beg that person to allow me to help them? No. Common sense would be just let them figure it out and I move on with no regrets. I do this for people who don't trust information I've given them as well... I just let them be stupid because they clearly want to be despite hearing the correct answer to their question.
TL;DR - I help people because it's common sense to do so, but I don't go out of my way to forcibly help if told not to. I don't feel as though my actions are kind or nice but rather the easiest and more obvious choice to make since it takes more effort to ignore someone.