Is it normal i still miss my friend and yet she broke my heart few years ago?

I dont think of her hardly anyone, with having said that I still miss her at times. She is toxic but also I grew close to her and knew her for some years. I cant live with out her yet somehow I am and yet I know I couldnt have her back even if I wanted her as she didnt put much effort into our friendship in the end. I truly loved everything about her, all her physical imperfections. I dont k ow why, I felt a soul connection I guess. Here I am feeling glum wishing things were different and knowing it's a high high chance ill never see her agian nor will she ever reach out or try to change. My life was never the same since I lost such a close friend, someone I loved. Sure, I have good friends now and have had plenty over last 5 years but it's not ththe same feeling as I had for her. She actually ruined my life

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  • hungDaddy

    I'm going through the exact same thing and I wonder every day if she's having these exact same thoughts. I still haven't moved on, even though it has been five years as well, but I've just learned to deal with the pain.

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    • That's so sad!!

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  • Columbusbiguy

    Perhaps she affected your life for a short amount of time, but you are the one ruining it. Relationships come and go. Learn from it and move on. Or at lesst stop whining about it and get some professiinal help. Either way there has to be a better oucome than, "poor, poor, me, i blame someone else for my shitty life."

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  • CountessDouche

    Obviously, you do think about her. You need to move on, which is easier said than done, but can be done nonetheless, as impossible as tharlt seems. It starts with you focusing on yourself & occupying your time with that.

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    • I do all that, it's just a permanent memory that comes up when ever I meet someone new.

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      • CountessDouche

        When you say things like, "she actually ruined my life," it doesn't sound like you've moved on at all, and hanging on to all that hurt is incredibly seft destructive & toxic.

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        • I have moved on, she ruined my life because she hurt me

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