Is it normal i push my friends away?
I don't trust people full stop since I've been so hurt and let down in the past by friends.
I have always felt like a shadow in people's lives.
I used to care about having friends so much but now I don't care as much and have developed social anxiety out of the blue.
I just don't try to maintain friends anymore out of fear of investing getting attached then them ditching or hurting me.