Is it normal i need serious help with sleep paralysis, i'm pleading
I don't even know how to fully explain this but I'll try my best. I struggle with sleep paralysis quite consistently but recently it feels like it has progressed in to something new entirely.
An example is an experience I had last night. I fell asleep on the couch. As I started to fall asleep I felt sleep paralysis kick in, I couldn't move, I was panicking, and it felt like my vision was fading to black starting from the centre of my vision which then expanded to the outer peripherals of my vision, like a black cloud of smoke. As my vision completely darkened I can only explain the next sensation as an immediate feeling of dropping and as that happened my vision simultaneously became an even darker shade of black entirely, and both sensations happened at the beat of one drum.
I was trying to fight this feeling off by moving as much as I can and making as much noise as I could. This is when things got even worse. I was able to move, still stuck in the fuzziness of senses as when sleep paralysis kicks in, my heart was pounding and I felt like I was having a heart attack and I moved to my partner who was sitting on the other seat in the living room, trying to force out the words, "Heart attack, I think I'm having a heart attack". It felt that even though I regained consciousness I was still stuck with the sensations you have while experiencing sleep paralysis. During this I was finding it hard to stand, I was leaning on the seat, leaning against my partner, before falling to the ground. I was then pushing myself along the floor on my back in a panic trying to move because in sleep paralysis I feel that if I don't move or make enough sound to get myself back to full consciousness then I'm going to fall deeper in to the sensation sleep paralysis brings and that as a consequence I will die, but then I notice that I'm being dragged along the floor by absolutely nothing, as if something is tormenting me by dragging me around the room, like some sort of poltergeist.
Of course, this is when I start to ACTUALLY regain full consciousness and find myself still on the couch, heart pounding, head fuzzy, and coming down from the panic I felt during it all. I've had sleep paralysis where I see hallucinations or audible hallucinations but I've never heard of hallucinations that go beyond those two senses. I felt all of it, the only difference is that the hallucination and breakdown of reality wasn't real but every sensation I felt during it was real, and I can't keep going on this way being afraid to fall asleep but I don't know what I can do or if there's anything that can be done, so I'm pleading here for someone to know anything about this and help me out. Thanks.