Is it normal i need serious help with sleep paralysis, i'm pleading

I don't even know how to fully explain this but I'll try my best. I struggle with sleep paralysis quite consistently but recently it feels like it has progressed in to something new entirely.

An example is an experience I had last night. I fell asleep on the couch. As I started to fall asleep I felt sleep paralysis kick in, I couldn't move, I was panicking, and it felt like my vision was fading to black starting from the centre of my vision which then expanded to the outer peripherals of my vision, like a black cloud of smoke. As my vision completely darkened I can only explain the next sensation as an immediate feeling of dropping and as that happened my vision simultaneously became an even darker shade of black entirely, and both sensations happened at the beat of one drum.

I was trying to fight this feeling off by moving as much as I can and making as much noise as I could. This is when things got even worse. I was able to move, still stuck in the fuzziness of senses as when sleep paralysis kicks in, my heart was pounding and I felt like I was having a heart attack and I moved to my partner who was sitting on the other seat in the living room, trying to force out the words, "Heart attack, I think I'm having a heart attack". It felt that even though I regained consciousness I was still stuck with the sensations you have while experiencing sleep paralysis. During this I was finding it hard to stand, I was leaning on the seat, leaning against my partner, before falling to the ground. I was then pushing myself along the floor on my back in a panic trying to move because in sleep paralysis I feel that if I don't move or make enough sound to get myself back to full consciousness then I'm going to fall deeper in to the sensation sleep paralysis brings and that as a consequence I will die, but then I notice that I'm being dragged along the floor by absolutely nothing, as if something is tormenting me by dragging me around the room, like some sort of poltergeist.

Of course, this is when I start to ACTUALLY regain full consciousness and find myself still on the couch, heart pounding, head fuzzy, and coming down from the panic I felt during it all. I've had sleep paralysis where I see hallucinations or audible hallucinations but I've never heard of hallucinations that go beyond those two senses. I felt all of it, the only difference is that the hallucination and breakdown of reality wasn't real but every sensation I felt during it was real, and I can't keep going on this way being afraid to fall asleep but I don't know what I can do or if there's anything that can be done, so I'm pleading here for someone to know anything about this and help me out. Thanks.

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  • First and foremost do you do benzos? My sleep paralysis happens way more often and is worse when I am actively taking benzos. another cause of this may be PTSD. I suggest you talk to your doctor about it because there’s medication that they can give you for getting rid of nightmares or controlling them.

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    • I dont even know what Benzos are, so no. On no medication, don't do drugs at all besides the occasional drink once in a long while and vape.

      Hopefully I don't need to be on any medication, I got suggested to put on some TV to distract and its worked for the past day or two, see how long that works for.

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    • This surprises me, man. I used to do a lot of benzos and MDMA and MDMA gave it me badly, but benzos didn't. Either way Sleep paralysis is horrible though, I wish op the best.

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      • I dont do any drugs or medication, so I'm honestly not sure what's triggering it. :(

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  • I know this is a really generic answer but this is something you need to talk to a professional about, I would recommend a therapist, not necessarily a psychiatrist who is mainly there for recommending prescriptions if you don't want to use medications.

    Do you have any sort of trauma that may be causing these things? You're essentially having intense nightmares where you are in danger and cannot control your body to escape. This is a very deep primal fear, I wish you weren't having to deal with this issue and I hope you are able to recover from it.

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    • I've had a rough upbringing as a child in to my teens but I'm way over it, I'm a pretty stress-free guy. I've started a new job but I'm not stressed about it at all and I'm really enjoying it so I dont know what's triggering it.

      Could vapes/nicotine trigger it? Just looking for suggestions but if all else fails I may need to get it checked.

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  • I've had this issue before and my wife used to sometimes be able to tell and she'd wake me up. A lot of time you'll make whining noises in your sleep and fidget a lot. Mine got better when I got off opioids. I also now take lunacin or whatever its called. Itll have you out like a rock. Melatonin sometimes makes it worde.

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  • I’m sorry to hear of this, it sounds truly awful. As this isn’t a specialised forum I doubt many people will be able to relate to your situation, you might have more luck asking on here:

    https://www.reddit.com/r/Sleepparalysis/

    I hope you find the help you need.

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  • Benzos.

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    • I'm really hoping I don't have to use any sort of drug to sort this out but I'll take a look in to them to see if it's the type of thing that may help. Thanks for the suggestion.

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