Is it normal i'm so confused if she actually loved me ?

24f and here's my situation regarding a friend.

I felt she never appreciated how good I was to her or how I genuinely actually loved her. She knew I was always there for her. I felt like I was always in her background and an "option" since she didn't make me priority.

With having said that, we were close physically as friends, hug all the time & she used to often say she loves me heaps. She'd said sweet things that really melted me like how when we reconnected she would say " I'm so lucky to have you back in my life" and "I literally had tears in my eyes when you text me"
She once said she dreamt of me 2 weeks prior to me texting her and in the dream we told each other we were sorry, missed each other and hugged. She said it's kinda like hug,kiss and makeup.
Another time she said we had a connection on the beach that day (years ago) and it was intense like we interconnected. "Sounds kinda like romance " she had said.
Given all this and the fact I was making most the effort in the friendship I felt confused whether or not she actually genuinely loved me .
I even fell for her and told her this and she said that day on the beach we had a "spiritual connection"
I even told her it really hurt how she didn't make much effort in the friendship because to me friendship is a 2 way street. She didn't even empathize or apologize for her lack of effort or simply the way I felt. No compromise offered either, she just flicked it off as if I was just another "friend" and no one meaningful saying she's bad at keeping in touch with people and I'm not the only one who gets that end of the stick"