Is it normal i'm sick of my natural hair color?

I dyed my hair a few times just for fun & also the fact I don't like my natural blonde hair.
Lately, I have kind of realised its dirty blonde & I'm quite disappointed really because it just makes it sound ugly. My sister will always call it this. I also feel that ever since I was 15 (now I'm 22), its gotten darker as it used to have a lot of light parts which I loved. Tbh idk if it was because I basically lived at the beach the first couple years so it highlighted my hair more, or its something else. Can't really afford to get it professionally done so tried John Freida Go Blonder but now my fringe is kinda like ginger which I frikn hate.