Is it normal i give money to a girl i will never meet?

I am a big fan of this girl on youtube I watched her videos and at the time she was saving to get a better camera and better equipment to improve the quality of her videos. I left anonymous donation to her paypal account and also bought her a cute bra and panty set as a gift for producing great content. I knew she had a boyfriend but I did it anyway, she even responded back saying that her boyfriend was going to like the clothes I got for her. This was a few months ago. Since then I have bought her more gifts and donated more money into her account. She felt like she had to give me something in return even though I never asked for anything, so she sends me private videos from time to time (all clean and containing no nudity). I know I will never meet her but it feels good to give her my money, the way I see it is that if I'm not going to spend my paycheck then she deserves to. I do love her but it's more than just physical, she is kind of like my shining light and inspiration.