Is it normal i feel like something is bothering me but i’m not sure what?
I have a few guesses, but the more I think the more confusing it gets. I only turned 19 this month, yet these past few years I’ve been obsessed with extending my life, as well as pondering over whether or not there’s an afterlife. I feel like I spent so much time focusing on my future that I forget to live in the present, but everything in my life seems very repetitive. I have completely contradictory desires, sometimes I want to travel the world and explore, other times I just want to stay in my room and never come out. I feel like I may have spent so much time alone and indoors that I don’t know how I’m supposed to act in the world around me, and have become so used to communicating online that I can’t speak properly in real life. I don’t know what I’m even getting at, but basically imagine someone who spent a large chunk of their life in isolation and has the option of interacting with the rest of the world, but they got so used to the isolation that they weren’t sure if they wanted to give it up. That’s the best way I can describe my situation.