Is it normal i feel excited about people dying
I am not sure why but I always feel a bit happy at the idea of people I am close to dying. When I was a kid and my parents were late and I considered the possibility they had died, it almost excited me, despite the fact I love both of them. I do not want to kill them or anyone myself, but it almost seems relieving for them to be gone. I do not really feel sad at the prospect of anyone dying and the experiences I have had with people dying have not really upset me. I do feel guilt about having these thoughts/hopes. Is there something wrong with me? Any suggestions of why this could be?