Is it normal i feel bad about winning/succeeding

I’ve always been happy about being kind to others, I think it’s very important and a huge part of why I’m here in this life!

But I don’t think it’s fair that my kindness is rewarded with failure, or encouraged by guilt...

I work so hard to encourage others, ever since school it was a journey of hiding my good grades from my struggling friend, or giving my yearbook away to the kid who couldn’t afford one.

I know even now it sounds like I’m trying to show myself as some righteous over achiever who sees others as delicate charities, I feel guilty even talking this. I was never competitive, and always a giver. And honestly? I’m a huge pushover. I let people take advantage of me way too often.

I’ve missed opportunities, lost money, given away things that meant so much to me. I wish I didn’t have to feel so shitty anytime I do something for myself every now and then.

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  • andithoughtiwasweird

    So I only read the title. But maybe imposter syndrome applies here. But I didn’t read your thing so who knows lolol #tiredlazy

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  • RoseIsabella

    I don't give my stuff away.

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  • FromTheSouthWeirdMan

    Its not logical to feel bad about being a winner

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  • commander_isitnormal

    Sounds like you have some deep seated guilt about self betterment, maybe from your childhood or background? Unfortunately some upbringings are so strict or biased or in some cases abusive that they cause this. I know several people like this.

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  • donteatstuffoffthesidewalk

    id never be guilty about success what came from hard work & perseverance

    i git pissed at people who are prouda shit luck based success

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