Is it normal i don't really care for having friends anymore?

I am not the same person I used to be as opposed to about 5 years ago.

I used to be pretty okay hanging out with friends so long as we did something not in an enclosed space.
I like to be outdoors because I never know when anxiety may spike.
Over time things changed and things that I used to use as coping tools such as being outside, wearing sun glasses to cover my eyes because I find eye contact awkward, dont work much anymore.

I find socialising with anyone exhausting besides immediate family.

I used to want friends so badly and I did have friends but I was the one Making most the effort.

I now have a new friend who often asks to see me or do something together but I'm always so tired and my heart races a lot so I don't really enjoy the outing.

I get thoughts like I don't know who I'll bump into or what awkward situation I may be put in that I'm just going to feel anxiety like meeting a lot of new people and being asked questions.

I have mild depression, but more like exhaustion and I can't change the way I think.

I sometimes get anxiety attacks but yeah, I definitely had a racey heart for about 2 years now on a daily basis.

I work as well since it's physical work it tires me, I eat fairly healthy and no I don't take caffeine.

I like being alone

IIN

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  • Chocobonobble

    Yep sounds similar to my situation.
    Too much shit dealing with people so my mind has decided that to avoid friends is the best thing for my health. Who knows if I'm making the right desision, but I feel like if I try to be social again it will end up destroying me again.
    As long as you have family doesn't seem bad to me.

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  • nikkiclaire

    This seems to be happening to people on a more and more frequent basis.

    I have to work at it too.

    Sometimes I think we have changed from a social species to wanderers but its not evolutionarily possible in such a short time span.

    I'd love to hear from our older posters if this was the same when you grew up. Half the people I know have this issue.

    And no I am not op.

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  • TypicalPlayer82692

    Same here honestly, I’ve recently stopped caring for people in general as well. However, I also stopped caring about most of my immediate family, so oh well. But you’re definetly not alone here.

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  • Babygirl17

    I hate people.

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  • fakeaccount2

    Same

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  • Emokate

    I've only ever had one friend, cause we grew up together as neighbors. Even she doesn't acknowledge me at school.

    I have the same social anxiety as you seem to have. Always thr one making effort, always feeling on edge, no one else seems to feel this way and I hate it.

    I am not getting any benefits from trying to make friends, so why bother.

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