Is it normal i can't bond with people and i get in trouble for showing emotion.

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Gosh where to start. I'm a senior in highschool, pretty well known, voted best dressed. People look at me and assume I'm happy. I'm never happy, I haven't been happy or felt anything like that in 5 years. When ever I lose a friend I don't feel anything. I just get over it and never thing of them again. Also my aunt passed away I really liked her but didn't feel anything. When I look at people I just can't bond with them I just don't care... At home I'm not allowed to show emotion, any. Iv never yelled at my parents, or even cussed at them. Whenever I appear sad they say "stop throwing a pity party no one feels bad for you" so I stop. When ever I'm angry I'm told to shut up so I never can get anything off my cheast. My mom goes from being my bestfriend to someone who hates me. Whenever something small happens she cusses me out. She acts emotionally unstable. I'm also not allowed to vent. My parents don't want to hear about my problems at all. Whenever I'm in my house I go to my room and don't come out. I have horrible social anxiety I hate when people stare at me. Idk how to express emotion towards people. I use to feel sad now I feel like an empty void. Litteraly nothing. The weirdest things will trigger me and I'll start to cry. I don't feel like a bad person but I think my personality has died. My emotions usually are absent but when I feel them they arn stable what so ever. I also don't think I love my parents. They make me feel horrible. They won't even pay for my therapy anymore because the therapist agreed with me and told them they were wrong so they stopped. I feel so alone besides my bestfriend. I fool everyone with a nice wardrobe and a smile. I hate my life I'm so confined within myself. It's so hard when you get in trouble for showing emotion. I love when I'm at school because I'm not home and now the summers coming up... Sorry this is so long.

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  • Pseudo
    12 years ago

    I can relate to your situation. I usually don't feel happy all of the time and I wonder how other people do it. I don't show much emotion at home either. I just go home to be bored or do homework and I feel like I'm wasting away. I'm sorry about your relationship with your parents and as for me, I don't tell them about any of my problems. I try to solve them myself while being alone in my room. I have social anxiety as well and am trying to get rid of it. I guess it came from a lack of exposure and having such a heavy focus on school. I saw how happy groups of friends looked and I thought making friends would make me happy. I still feel empty for some reason even though I made some good friends. I also like being in school more than at home. I don't want to feel like an empty shell anymore, but I'm not sure how to go about doing that. At least I know there are other people that feel the same way.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Sorry for this post being so long :(

    "I get in trouble for showing emotion." Thats what made me read your post man.

    I want you to know I'm exactly the same. And I also think the root of my issues are my parents. They are just SO goddamn fucked up. I dont know how to explain them... They have just tried to tear down every dream I've ever had, and have made every bad situation I was ever in, even worse.

    I noticed this at young age so I began to detach from everything. I just became hollow. At school I'm sociable and have popularity but behind all that I feel nothing for anyone. I get home and just stay in my room. Same as you... My parents think I'm a problem child, so they tried to take me to a psychologist. But I never had a SINGLE session. The Pyschologist spoke to my parents first, he wanted to know what they thought was the issue. And when the psychologist questioned what they said it evolved into a heated agruement. He ended off saying, "I'm sorry, but I do not think I can be of any help." The psychologist didn't even speak to me in that "session"

    Just look at that situation... Its clear that my parents are the issue and yet they refuse to admit it. I am always the one thats wrong.

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  • xstarbugyx
    12 years ago

    I feel bad for you I'd try and just forget about you parents and go away to school make new friends and just start a new life try to rebuild happiness and don't let yourself get down over every little thin

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    • Fauxfox
      12 years ago

      Thank you. Well They are kicking my out by next month after I walk. They won't give me money for my schooling :/

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    go emo

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    • Fauxfox
      12 years ago

      Why would you take your time to read all of this just to reply with that? It's pointless and unhelpful.

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      • [Old Memory]
        12 years ago

        Because I can. So fuck with it.

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