Story of my life... Depression sucks. Tho yours is more serious. I just hate my life and my mistakes. I haven't gotten to the point to completely alienate myself from my loved ones and the things I love.
I suggest professional help. Try to occupy yourself. Focus on your job, read books, try a new hobby, or a new sport. Suicide is the easy way out, it's not right. That's the loser's way out. You are not a loser. Think of all the people that love you... Think of what you'll put them through.
That stopped me. Last week I was staring at a highway intersection, wearing no seatbelt, disconnected airbag module, blasting straight at it at 240kmh!
My girlfriend rang. I swerved left and avoided the crash.
She told me she loved me and was coming home early. Can't get a better wakeup call than that. I thought about my mom and dad. I stopped the car and cried on the side of the road. Reconnected the airbag module, put my seatbelt on and went home. Gave my girlfriend a long hug and told her "Thank you". She has no idea what I thanked her for and she'll never find out.
But I swore to never let such thoughts govern my life ever again! I can't do that to the people I love.
I may be a miserable, self loathing dick with a struggling business, 3 cars who drinks himself to sleep, but I'm no loser.
I will work on finding happiness and I believe I will eventually find it and so will you. Stay strong!
I’m not diagnose with depression so i don’t wanna assume anything. But do u think that i do? I often imagine killing myself but i dont have suicidal thoughts. I dont want anyone to know that i feel this way cuz im scared. Is it something people experience all the time when life gets hard? But based on what u know, do u think i have depression? Sorry, im so repetitive.
I do think you have depression and a very serious case of it. I deal with depression too, but when you lose interest in all the things you like and alienate yourself from people, that's the alarm going off. Serious depression that needs to be dealt with.
But I do get where you're coming from. I can't tell anyone I love about my issues, cause I don't want to worry them. But as I said, I do try to occupy myself and drown out the depression. And it does work to varying degrees of success. Other than that, a drink before bed helps me to get at ease.
I agree with megadriver, I think you need to talk to someone about it. You should be able to enjoy life and have things that give you joy and happiness. I have bad anxiety and depression, I can relate to most things you mention but not as serious as I can still have interest in things often still even when im down. The best thing to do is talk to a professional about it, I see a psychologist monthly and it helps me a lot, I've recently started taking medication too, talking to a professional does help even though they can't just magically help and make all your problems go away (I wish they could). This feeling happens to people all the time and is normal, the best thing to do is to try get help before it gets worse. (Sorry I probably just repeated what other people said and talked to much about my own issues) Happy to chat if you want to talk more.
IIN I can see myself commiting suicide in the future?
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Story of my life... Depression sucks. Tho yours is more serious. I just hate my life and my mistakes. I haven't gotten to the point to completely alienate myself from my loved ones and the things I love.
I suggest professional help. Try to occupy yourself. Focus on your job, read books, try a new hobby, or a new sport. Suicide is the easy way out, it's not right. That's the loser's way out. You are not a loser. Think of all the people that love you... Think of what you'll put them through.
That stopped me. Last week I was staring at a highway intersection, wearing no seatbelt, disconnected airbag module, blasting straight at it at 240kmh!
My girlfriend rang. I swerved left and avoided the crash.
She told me she loved me and was coming home early. Can't get a better wakeup call than that. I thought about my mom and dad. I stopped the car and cried on the side of the road. Reconnected the airbag module, put my seatbelt on and went home. Gave my girlfriend a long hug and told her "Thank you". She has no idea what I thanked her for and she'll never find out.
But I swore to never let such thoughts govern my life ever again! I can't do that to the people I love.
I may be a miserable, self loathing dick with a struggling business, 3 cars who drinks himself to sleep, but I'm no loser.
I will work on finding happiness and I believe I will eventually find it and so will you. Stay strong!
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I’m not diagnose with depression so i don’t wanna assume anything. But do u think that i do? I often imagine killing myself but i dont have suicidal thoughts. I dont want anyone to know that i feel this way cuz im scared. Is it something people experience all the time when life gets hard? But based on what u know, do u think i have depression? Sorry, im so repetitive.
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I do think you have depression and a very serious case of it. I deal with depression too, but when you lose interest in all the things you like and alienate yourself from people, that's the alarm going off. Serious depression that needs to be dealt with.
But I do get where you're coming from. I can't tell anyone I love about my issues, cause I don't want to worry them. But as I said, I do try to occupy myself and drown out the depression. And it does work to varying degrees of success. Other than that, a drink before bed helps me to get at ease.
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I agree with megadriver, I think you need to talk to someone about it. You should be able to enjoy life and have things that give you joy and happiness. I have bad anxiety and depression, I can relate to most things you mention but not as serious as I can still have interest in things often still even when im down. The best thing to do is talk to a professional about it, I see a psychologist monthly and it helps me a lot, I've recently started taking medication too, talking to a professional does help even though they can't just magically help and make all your problems go away (I wish they could). This feeling happens to people all the time and is normal, the best thing to do is to try get help before it gets worse. (Sorry I probably just repeated what other people said and talked to much about my own issues) Happy to chat if you want to talk more.