Is it normal i am this shitty of a gf
Ok so it's a long story. I've been with my current BF for over 5 years. We have been planning to move in together as soon as I graduate (this May) and have been talking about marriage. We have never had issues with cheating or anything of that sort. About a week ago my ex bf (let's call him Daniel) called me, this one is from right before I met my current BF (let's call him Eric). Well Daniel and I never really officially broke up, we were very young (me 16 and him 17) and one day he just disappeared, stopped calling and texting, gone. I knew he was in trouble with the law and his parents, so I kinda knew why he disappeared. I met Eric when I was 17, a year later and have been together ever since. Daniel called me a couple of times within the first 4 months of my current relationship but then didn't hear from him again until last week. It was so weird, like I'm still mad at him, but couldn't help but want to catch up. He said he still had my number on his old phone, so he called. He asked if I was still with Eric and I of course said yes. We were on the phone for 2 hours. It was also weird bc Eric and I had just reconciled after one of our biggest fight, like the timing was weird. I keep having these internal conflicts with myself, like why does it bother me so much that he still calls, like I was perfectly fine before this happened. It's not even like he is a good person to be friends with or anything, I feel like it's literally the bad boy effect. Daniel is the complete opposite of Eric. Daniel has a criminal record, hates school, has no ambition as to progress in life, has negative perceptions of certain women; it's seriously nothing compared to Eric. Eric loves, and I mean LOVES me. Went back to school for me (He didn't want people to question why I was with him), he came up with a saving system, so that we are good to go in May, he treats me like his queen, works overrime just so he can spoil me. Yet, I can't get the stupid conversation out of my head. I figured, if I ignore it enough, I will just forget, but if Daniel ever contacts me it will all just come back again, and when I'm not with Eric I obsess over it more and more. I'm scared that if I do meet up with Daniel I will either yell at his ass or just completely mess up what Eric I have built together. Either one makes me a shitty person. Even writing this makes me feel like complete crap bc I know I already have a great guy that I should never risk losing. But I literally can't share my feelings with anyone else, and I have to get it out somehow.
| Pursue closure | 7 | |
| Try to forget about it and continue your current relationship | 22 |