Is it normal for guys to go to such a big extent?

This is an essay post so letting you know. You can skim through it if you're good at it and still grab all the important info.

You know, ever since dating my current bf, Ive been learning A LOT about guys. My last bf was not the most masculine ever, and wasn't that boy ish, outgoing, etc. But my current bf is...he has most of all the general guy traits so going from my ex to him has been difficult cause I guess I never fell so deeply for a guy and dealt with someone so man ish. So with that being said, I'm watching the special of Bruce Jenner and the most common question surrounding this subject is WHY NOW? Why at this age? HOW CAN YOU GO THIS LONG?

My own interpretation with a combination of what Ive been going through w my bf lead me to think that guys generally, can go to such a big extent to pretend something. And that lead me to no wonder girls are always in question with guys "are you sure he likes me?" "he does this but idk if Im the one" "hell do everything right but Im still feeling unsure." Guys give us a sense of doubt. I'm sorry but I don't want to exactly speak for all girls but based on what I see, read, hear...this is what goes on.

In other words, guys can live such tremendous lies. They are so good at it and you wonder why girls are always in doubt. Maybe Im missing it, but I never seen or heard of a woman transition into a man at that age. This thought also goes back to my professor a few years ago how he made fun of girls trying to cut themselves but they don't have that much strength or "guts" to do it so they barely cut themselves and call these "tiny marks" as cutting themselves as opposed to guys who go "all the way." It just comes down to how generally guys have so much guts and they prob don't even know that theyre doing something so gutsy and to sucha big extent.

Now, going back to my ex, I would not be surprised if he turns out to be gay. One of the reasons why I let him go was cause I would get turned off at how feminine he would be. I actually even pointed it out to him one time (we were really comfortable w each other to talk about anything) if hes gay and of course hell go laugh it off hysterically like a million percent not true...but again, guys can go so far to live a lie or should I say "actions speak louder than words."

Now with all that being said, it makes me anxious and relaxed at the same time knowing that I never fully believe or trust my bf or guys in general but it scares me cause I simply don't want to be lied to. My bf could be cheating on me but he is a good man so I'm fooled by it. My bf or future husband can be loving to me and sucha gentleman when he himself can be in such in denial with themselves. Girls are known to be a little more vulnerable and kind of fall apart sooner which is NOT A BAD THING. Whereas, guys, considering almost EVERY response I have gotten to this subject, have been taught by society to man up and stand tall and not fall apart which leads to my point...guys have a lot of guts to go to sucha far extent.