Is it normal disturbing memory from childhood

Sounds like your folks decided to get rid of you but couldn't bring themselves to do it. What is your relationship with them since then?

It sounds like your dad at the time was considering suicide and wanted to take you with him because believe it or not he loved you. But it looks like he changed his mind and went back home. You dodged a bullet, literally, hopefully things are better now.

What the fuck, indeed.

The only other possible explanation I can think of is that your father threatened to kill himself, and your mother called his bluff. You say nothing about your relationship with your parents or what sort of people they are, but it would be a very strange mother who said, "Hank, I'm tired of dealing with little Jimmy's shit. Why don't you take him off into the woods and shoot him just like you did your old coon dog when he went blind?" Then her giving you a goodbye hug and calmly heading for bed.

The oddest - and in retrospect, most disturbing - memory I have from my childhood is from when I was around ten. Childhood memories are notoriously unreliable, but I can date it with a reasonably degree of accuracy because I was the oldest, and my many siblings were all born two years apart.

My sisters (who would have been eight, six and two) shared an upstairs bedroom and my brother and I slept in a room next to theirs, while our parents' bedroom was downstairs.

I remember lying in bed trying to get to sleep and hearing my father come up the stairs (it was an old house, and the stairs all creaked) in the darkness. I heard him go into my sisters' bedroom and stay there for a while, and then go back out to the landing and stay there. I was curious what was going on, so I got up and sneaked across to peak out the bedroom door, and I saw him kneeling in the corner of the landing (the ceiling sloped down there, so it wasn't high enough for an adult to stand).

It was an odd thing for him to do, and although religion played no role in our family life - we never went to church, never said grace or anything like that - I decided after I went to bed that he must have been praying. I'm pretty sure it happened more than once, and there was clearly something so peculiar about it that it's one of the few very clear memories I have of my life during that period.

As I got older, I came to understand that my father was definitely a non-believer, which made the incident(s) even more mysterious. But then, long after I'd left home, my mother caught him sexually assaulting my youngest sister when she was only a toddler, and the most likely explanation for what I'd heard and seen became very clear.

What I find most odd is that, even though I was a naïve kid who didn't have a clue about sex (this was in the mid-sixties), some instinct made me flag the incident as something important enough that I should remember it.

By the way, my sisters all always said that they had no memory of him ever doing anything inappropriate with them. But he wasn't a stupid man, and he very likely would have been aware of childhood amnesia and been careful about limiting himself to only messing around with his daughters when they were very young.

I dont even know what to say....I wouldn't ask them about it cuz they'd lie....just be careful

Na bro, you got it all wrong! Your dad simply took you out on your first hunting trip and your brain all mashed it up.

Good old murder suicide

Wow... WTF!

Late-term abortion

Wow. That would be really disturbing. Def not a normal thing for a parent to do!