Is it normal 4 someone with bipolar depression to not want to take showers

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I am sitting in my car and I'm fighting with myself to go in and take a shower I know I need one it's probably been like a month since I've had one I mean I do bird baths here in there but it's not the same thing as actually getting into the shower but at the thing is it hurts to get in the shower I'm totally full of pain all the time I can't stand for long periods of time and have already fell a few times in the shower with no one to help me and wipes all my energy out and just the thought of getting in the shower and having to go through the whole ordeal is brings tears to my eyes!!! and I don't understand why because I was not a person like before this I've never been like this and I hate that I've become this person I used to always take pride in my appearance and my hygiene and now I can give a rat's ass !!!!

I don't know what's wrong with me I do know that I've been through a lot in the last several years including getting my heartbroken overcoming drug addiction I've been clean since 2012 now! But I'm disabled on top of it! I have feelings of being a failure towards my children because I can't provide! Don't want this to rub off on my kids I don't want this to keep on continuing does anyone have any suggestions I don't need anyone to beat me down more so if all you have is negative comments please keep it to yourself I only need positive reinforcement something that would help me because I don't know why am I struggling with this so bad?

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    6 years ago

    Thank you for your input

    so outta everything I talk about, you feel it's the relationship holding me back or causing the most damage?

    It's my first time my life not being able to let go someone. But over time it had gotten better! I was almost over him and last month he ask me out again and it just rushed back as lot of emotions. But also made me realize I can't be with him because of his mental health is worst then I thought. So I'm processing again.

    But I'm more worried about why I'm not caring for myself at this point!

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  • redrainbow22
    6 years ago

    Your putting too much pressure on yourself. You gotta relax :)

    But thats good your clean! Congrats!

    Your life sounds fine to me. Your not on drugs anymore. If the only thing holding you back is that relationship, you need to let it go.

    Its not important anymore. Life goes on :) You can always find someone new if you want.

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  • Twitgirlfriend
    6 years ago

    Depression is one hell of a thing.
    So sorry to hear of your pain and suffering.Some times it is not only deppression but could be Iorn defficiency Anemia or low blood pressure that makes you lethargic and not want to do anything. I just discovered that is my problem. I did not want to leave my room or clean the house.Just felt exhausted and out of Breath quite a lot of the time. I saw the Doctor and got 2 pints blood. Feeling so much better.
    Goodluck and remember the Day you came into this world you were not a mistake. God had a purpose for your life.Difficult to comprehend in your situation.Gods plan for our lives often does not make sense.Embrace his love for you and be thankful every day for something new.Bless you.x

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  • Lexiegirl
    6 years ago

    I wasn't sure if not wanting to shower or bathe was normal or not. Now that I see someone else feels that way makes me feel better. I'm old and very sedentary. Taking a shower or bath completely tires me out! But I do feel better being clean. I do the sponge bath thing so I'm not completely disgusting. I have a feeling it more normal than we know.

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  • geckopaws
    6 years ago

    As someone who suffers from BP depression, it’s really hard for me to take showers especially on top of my movement disorder Cervical Dystonia. I think the best encouragement I can give is giving yourself a mental health day. That means pjs, tv, ice cream, looking at positive stuff. Then the next day you get in the shower.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    6 years ago

    Ok well I finally did and I feel great! But I fucking hurt! And I'm shaky as hell! I'm so nervous anxiety is off the roof so nauseous and the pain this hurts so bad!!! I still haven't even put my clothes on yet!!!! That's the next challenge!!!

    Oh and I forgot to mention I'm like three hundred and 368 lb something like that so it's not used to being around and it does hurt too thin and everything so yeah that makes everything even worse!!!

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