I would live a christian life to marry a girl
I don't think my conscious would allow me to lie directly to people but I think I'd be willing to go to Church, read the Bible, live by the ethics, and maybe even pray, if it meant I could be with this one particular girl I dated.
I liked her a lot and she was extremely beautiful. She challenged me as a person and when were clicking it felt so natural, free, and happy to be around one another. Also I had a sexual attraction to her I haven't felt in years. It's been months since we've talked but I still think about her.
She would never marry a guy who wasn't a full blown Christian And I would never lie to her to say that I am, i.e. that I truly believe Jesus rose from the dead and that there's a heaven and a hell. (I think of the Bible more as a deep metaphor. One that I truly respect and want to study, but I don't see it as always literal.) But hypothetically if she somehow would date me seriously if I lived the Christian lifestyle even without fully believing in it, I would do that for her. Is it normal that I would be willing to do this? Again, this is only hypothetical because she realistically wouldn't date me unless I was a real believer.