I wish i had a terminal illness

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im suicidal but lack the willpower to kill myself. life is hard and i wish i didn't have to work or go to school. i have shallow goals and i felt as a child that id never grow to be as old as i am now (mid 20's) so i don't know how to handle it.

i want to be terminally ill. i want to die young while all my friends and family still like me. i want to die before i can get old or ugly or fuck up my relationships. i want to have a good excuse to not want to achieve anything, a good reason for people to be nicer to me. if i could choose willingly to just pass when i hit 30, i would.

i wish for this often. i pray for it. this is probably terrible and offensive to actually terminally ill ppl. i just don't want to live.

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  • RoseIsabella
    4 years ago

    You need professional help.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      4 years ago

      you're right, i take medication and see therapists regularly. i wish it worked better.

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      • RoseIsabella
        4 years ago

        I'm sorry to hear that, and I know it ain't easy.

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  • Clunk42
    4 years ago

    1. God will not give you a terminal illness. You should be asking Satan for that if you really want it.

    2. I don't understand how life can be as hard as you make it sound. Perhaps you could elaborate more as to why you want a terminal illness.

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  • Wellyoudliketoknoweh
    4 years ago

    I feel u, know that same exact feeling...
    How long have you been feeling like this?

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  • momwatcher69
    4 years ago

    I think you don't have the "willpower" because you REALLY don't want to end your life. So there MUST be something about life that you don't want to let go of. This is a good thing !

    Take that little piece of hope, and hang on, to it, while you find the "right" therapist / medication.

    We don't even know you, but . . . . WE CARE !!

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    Unfortunately IIN isn't the best place for you to be asking about this. Check out the above websites or call one of the hotlines instead. They can help. Really.

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  • NotNormal17
    4 years ago

    Please get yourself professional help. There are people that care for you, and your family definitely wants to see you grow up into a happy, hard-working person. Don't give up on yourself, you have so much potential. Committing suicide will have a massive impact on your friends and family, and they may blame themselves for what you did. Continue to find the will to live, and stay well.

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  • Tealights
    4 years ago

    What got you so down?

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  • Nikclaire
    4 years ago

    Sad. Seek help.

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  • cipro
    4 years ago

    Take antidepressants plus benzos, u are obviously depressed.

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