I want to see my imaginary friends again, iin?

This is the easiest way to put this:
I only see my friends on school days since I live far from them, so I decided to remember my imaginary friends, I do get the images of me but they seem blotched out, I created new ones just to not feel lonely all the time, but I feel like my mind wont allow it.
Is it normal I'm trying to see them?
If so, how do I do so? (Google isn't helping)
Thanks for your answer
*Also, I do have a life, but the people in my neighborhood are jerks