i want to eat myself ☺ ...

I don't think what you're wanting is really considered normal. Although, technically, if you are just eating lab cultured human flesh I can't see that theres anything wrong with that specifically. I don't know anything about how to culture human flesh in a lab so I don't know if there are other things to be concerned about on a biological level. But I think that if you're interested in eating human flesh, regardless of the source, and even if the source is technically a source within the law, I think that you might want to consult a person trained to be familiar with that desire and who can offer you ideas about how you might handle that desire in ways that keep you safe from the risks of the transfer of disease from one person to another by consuming human flesh, and keeps you safe from, well, keeps you safe from those with torches and pitchforks who might show up in very real, albeit probably metaphorical, ways. There are real reasons why its best to get your protien from other species. Carefully look for and choose a professional who will understand, really understand, whats up with you and who can help you develop tastes for things in the grocery store. If nothing else, it will be a lot easier to do the weekly grocery shopping then having to schlep to Kroger for milk, eggs, bannas and lemons, then having to drive over to the farmers market for some fresh garlic and whatever is the latest veggie craze of the day, then run by the lab and carve off a slab of petri-dish human flesh so you've got something to throw on the grill for tonights little get together you're throwing. And besides, you'll have to pester people to give you a few of their cells scraped off some part of their body every now and again so you can have a variety. What if you just can't get enough of Ramon in the shipping department's back of the neck cells? And he comes down with a rash. And you were all ready for some musty ramon lab grown neck flesh tenders. Where's Betty Crocker when you need her? And dont get the Jolly Green Giant all bothered and upset, lord knows he's on edge as it is with all this monsanto genetically modified food thats just good food for you they say, but still you have to pay and pay and pay them for the seeds to plant a new crop each year...they say its cause the seeds are their intellectual property and they want money money money for all that gene splicin' and green gripin' they do. Yeah, Jolly Green is on edge, why get Ramon all worried too?