I want to be unhappy?

addicted to unhappiness?

ya, i know some people like this.

dude, don't be a buzz-kill. pull your socks up. we all have our moments.. what's bad in your life that's making you feel this way? family? school? you said you got a scholarship.. that's AMAZING :) congratulations.

Self-pity can be addictive.

There's actually a book out there titled: Addicted to Unhappiness

You're normal if there's a book about it.

"You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness..."

you wish to be unhappy fuck come on goodness i wish i were more happy but all my uncle does is bring me down and make me mad

some people like my ungrateful uncle he chooses to be the way he is now and always is and i hate him for that reason because he is a old ungrateful always sour madass motherfucker that is never happy and never will be

all that depressed bullshit depression is fake there is no such thing you could be mad or you could be happy or you could be upset but not depressed you could be a ungrateful dumbfuck

that sounded a lot like me.. i am depressed for no reason.. I too feel like I have no real reason to be depressed..but still i can think only negative ...

i know how you feel, everyone has a self destruct button sometimes we press it for no known reason just be gratefull for what youve got there are others out there with nothing. depression is a slippery slope so take your mind off your problem any way you can, it dont matter who you are it happens to everyone but if you realy want you will get through it good luck

Wanting to break your arm sounds a bit silly to be honest, I understand wanting to feel debilitated so all you have to do is lay in bed all day with the blinds shut and be undisturbed.Its not necessarily going to happen with breaking a limb though. But if you feel like you are not normal because you are depressed, look around kid. Some of the greatest novels of our time, or music that transcends all ages came, and continues to come from extraordinarily depressed people. It can certainly be easier though not better, to function with something to be upset about. There is a certain amount of comfort you can find in a state of always sad, it perpetuates the "you against the world" feeling. And in that feeling you are a noble and only right crusader, it also helps with your ego in that you feel more enlightened then those around you because your eyes have been opened to the "true tragedy of the human condition". You say you just heard back from college, so at the age im guessing you are (17-18) what you describe is basically angst. And angst is a really easy thing to cloak yourself in. If you do not get a reality check your depression can very easily turn in to anger and bitterness, the more that mentality progresses the more withdrawn you will become. You have no need to go check your self into a psychiatric hospital or anything, mostly just relax. Getting into college is a super stressful time but it sounds like you are doing a great job. If you want to indulge in self pity go listen to bright eyes or read a Sylvia Plath poem. Hell, write your own poem or book, just use it as an outlet rather then a constant state and wait a few years, chances are you will feel slowly better every day!

Depression is offen like this. I understand copletly how you feel. Unfortunatly depression is normaly like this. It isnt normal to be depressed though. Have you considerd councling or any other form of help? Being in this state too long is dangerus for the mind. It could lead to self harm, mutalation and even suicide. You dont want to live with the scars, trust me. So get help.