I want somebody to make me orgasm

Learn to satisfy yourself. Also it would probably behoove you to forget about all of that BDSM, and CNC stuff. You need to learn more about your female anatomy, and how to please, and satisfy yourself.

The sort of sex you say you're into will not satisfy you. You're just allowing guys who don't care about you to satisfy their stupid fantasies about rape, domination by means of using, and objectifying you... and yes, I think your rape fantasies are stupid too.

It sounds to me like you have a very submissive, needy and dependent personality. What you probably need most is to stop all your so called sexual activity, start therapy to work through your issues, and learn to take responsibility for yourself, and your needs. You need to stop degrading, and objectifying yourself.

If all you're offering is your self-centredness and neediness, I doubt very much if you're going to find anyone to satisfy you and perform for you.

If I were you I'd be concentrating on how to reach orgasm by yourself with the aid of whatever fantasies turn you on and also have a think about what you have to offer others rather than just getting what you want.

Do you know how to make yourself orgasm? If so you need to be open and tell people what you like. No one can read minds and not everyone likes the same stuff.

ill send you a picture of me

that should do the trick

Find a guy you know and have him and his friends tie you up and gang bang all your slutty holes

I'm your first man I prefer my face covered by your juices

Oh I'll tie u down

Let’s talk 😉

I'm confused, my fantasies and the sexual things I like are driven by what turns me on and vice versa. My orgasms are from being turned on.

So why would you be into cnc and bsdm if that wasn't doing the trick for you? I had a girlfriend that could only enjoy herself and have an orgasm by being forced to do things she normally could not voluntarily admit she liked. The cnc community worked for her, but few guys in the cnc life are fantasizing about kidnapping, tying up someone, and performing cunninglingus on her until she has an orgasm.
Now you might find a few ladies into doing that to you but most likely you'll be doing them.

Maybe that's the answer, for you to take the dominant role in the cnc/bsdm and find yourself a partner m or f and make them perform what you want on you.

Either way you need to figure out what works for you. If oral is all that works, then you need to find a person that really enjoys giving, not taking or getting.