Hello all, It is finally good to know that I am not alone who feels it this way (and much more glad to know that I am not an alien!). I am from India and I used to believe it is strange to be like this being from one of the most populated country in the world (where you have to people's person to succeed). I always hated competition and hatred and extreme religiousness and all that bullshit. I have a family and friends who love me a lot and I also love them to the point that I would gladly give my life for any of them, but if given a choice I would just want to live my life alone in forest or in some kind of wilderness away from all the "usual" things in life. I always felt like I don't belong here on this Earth. Just as some of you pointed out, I also love history (mostly middle Earth) and Science. Ya, that's right.. sounds controversial. I like to read and watch movies about middle ages and still many times think that any given country are still like small communities from middle ages.
I love science and mostly astronomy and astro-biology. I just want it do something in my life which will eventually help all humanity. I want to be useful, without being dragged in between life's races. I am a molecular biologist and like to work in lab day and night....alone... just secluded in my lab. Even if anyone locks me in lab and just provides me food I would be happy to spend great amount of time in lab.. Sometimes, I also feel like, just send me into a spaceship to the our space, even if we don't know the effects of long term space travel, I would be happy to be a test subject.
Bottom line --- I just want to live my life alone... away from people. My feelings got more intense when I moved to Norway for PhD. I live in a town with population of 5000. And I come from a metro city in India where population is atleast 5-6 million(that's entire Norway's population.. haha). After moving here, I got more in touch with pure nature and got more time to think about myself and all... and I realized where I belong. I belong away from people .. Into the wild. I also love to travel.. to go around places, and just as people in this community have pointed out, I love to walk around in towns alone... in my thoughts especially in old European towns.... It is one the best experiences anyone can have.
I like to read and one the most intriguing sentence with which I could relate myself is By Carl Sagan about Pale blue dot.
I could never talk about all this with anyone, neither with my family nor with my friends, because I knew no one would understand and I am different. Nevertheless, now I know, its not wrong to feel it that way and there are people like me in this world. Thank you all... for sharing their experiences, you have made me feel home (strange!). Best of luck.
/////if given a choice I would just want to live my life alone in forest or in some kind of wilderness away from all the "usual" things in life./////
You just said what I dreamed.
I've always felt that I don't belong in this world, is this normal?
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Hello all, It is finally good to know that I am not alone who feels it this way (and much more glad to know that I am not an alien!). I am from India and I used to believe it is strange to be like this being from one of the most populated country in the world (where you have to people's person to succeed). I always hated competition and hatred and extreme religiousness and all that bullshit. I have a family and friends who love me a lot and I also love them to the point that I would gladly give my life for any of them, but if given a choice I would just want to live my life alone in forest or in some kind of wilderness away from all the "usual" things in life. I always felt like I don't belong here on this Earth. Just as some of you pointed out, I also love history (mostly middle Earth) and Science. Ya, that's right.. sounds controversial. I like to read and watch movies about middle ages and still many times think that any given country are still like small communities from middle ages.
I love science and mostly astronomy and astro-biology. I just want it do something in my life which will eventually help all humanity. I want to be useful, without being dragged in between life's races. I am a molecular biologist and like to work in lab day and night....alone... just secluded in my lab. Even if anyone locks me in lab and just provides me food I would be happy to spend great amount of time in lab.. Sometimes, I also feel like, just send me into a spaceship to the our space, even if we don't know the effects of long term space travel, I would be happy to be a test subject.
Bottom line --- I just want to live my life alone... away from people. My feelings got more intense when I moved to Norway for PhD. I live in a town with population of 5000. And I come from a metro city in India where population is atleast 5-6 million(that's entire Norway's population.. haha). After moving here, I got more in touch with pure nature and got more time to think about myself and all... and I realized where I belong. I belong away from people .. Into the wild. I also love to travel.. to go around places, and just as people in this community have pointed out, I love to walk around in towns alone... in my thoughts especially in old European towns.... It is one the best experiences anyone can have.
I like to read and one the most intriguing sentence with which I could relate myself is By Carl Sagan about Pale blue dot.
I could never talk about all this with anyone, neither with my family nor with my friends, because I knew no one would understand and I am different. Nevertheless, now I know, its not wrong to feel it that way and there are people like me in this world. Thank you all... for sharing their experiences, you have made me feel home (strange!). Best of luck.
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/////if given a choice I would just want to live my life alone in forest or in some kind of wilderness away from all the "usual" things in life./////
You just said what I dreamed.